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“Uncle, it must be here and now. I cannot go away from this place a liar, as I came. Let me leave it here,–my cowardly, contemptible falsehood,–in this place of your cross. I am longing, like David, for that water they have gone to find, but I will not drink at Pilgrim Station, except with clean lips that have confessed and told you all.”

Mr. Withers shrank from these unrestrained and to him indecorous statements of feeling; they shocked him almost as much as would the spectacle of Daphne mutilating her beautiful hair, casting dust upon her head, and rending her garments before him. He believed that her trouble of soul was genuine, but his Puritan reserve in matters of conscience, his scholarly taste, his jealousy for the occasion which had brought them to that spot, all combined to make this unrestrained expression of it offensive to him. However, he no longer tried to repress her.

“Uncle, you don’t believe me,” she said; “but you must. I am quite myself.”

“Except for the prolonged nervous strain you have been suffering; and I am afraid I have not known how to spare you as I might the fatigue, the altitude perhaps, the long journey face to face with these cruel memories. But I will not press it, I will not press it,” he concluded hastily, seeing that his words distressed her.

“Press it all you can,” she said. “I wish you could press it hard enough for me to feel it; but I feel nothing–I am a stone. At this moment,” she reiterated, “I have no feeling of any kind but shame for myself that I should be here at all. Oh, if you only knew what I am!”

“It is not what you are, it is who you are, that brings you here, Daphne.”

“Yes, who I am! Who am I? What right had I to come here? I never loved him. I never was engaged to him, but I let you think so. When you wrote me that sweet letter and called me your daughter, why didn’t I tell you the truth? Because in that same letter you offered me his money–and–and I wanted the money. I lied to you then, when you were in the first of your grief, to get his money! I have been trying to live up to that He ever since. It has almost killed me; it has killed every bit of truth and decent womanly pride in me. I want you to save me from it before I grow any worse. You must take back the money. It did one good thing: it paid those selfish debts of mine, and it made mother well. What has been spent I will work for and pay back as I can. But I love you, uncle John; there has been no falsehood there.”

“This is the language of sheer insanity, Daphne, of mental excitement that passes reason.” Mr. Withers spoke in a carefully controlled but quivering voice–as a man who has been struck an unexpected and staggering blow, but considering the quarter it came from, is prepared to treat it as an accident. “The facts, John’s own words in his last letter to me, cannot be gainsaid. ‘I am coming home to you, dad, and to whom else I need not say. You know that I have never changed, but she has changed, God bless her! How well He made them, to be our thorn, our spur, our punishment, our prevention, and sometimes our cure! I am coming home to be cured,’ he said. You have not forgotten the words of that letter, dear? I sent it to you, but first–I thought you would not mind–I copied those, his last words. They were words of such happiness; and they implied a thought, at least, of his Creator, if not that grounded faith”–

“They were hopes, only hopes!” the girl remorsefully disclaimed. “I allowed him to have them because I wanted time to make up my wretched, selfish mind. I had never made him a single promise, never said one word that could give me the right to pose as I did afterwards, to let myself be grieved over as if I had lost my last hope on earth. I had his money all safe enough.”