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If in a happier world, I know you will.
You were a school-boy–what beneath the sun
So like a monkey? I was also one.
Strange, sure enough, to see what curious shoots
The nursery raises from the study’s roots!
In those old days the very, very good
Took up more room–a little–than they should;
Something too much one’s eyes encountered then
Of serious youth and funeral-visaged men;
The solemn elders saw life’s mournful half,–
Heaven sent this boy, whose mission was to laugh,
Drollest of buffos, Nature’s odd protest,
A catbird squealing in a blackbird’s nest.
Kind, faithful Nature! While the sour-eyed Scot–
Her cheerful smiles forbidden or forgot–
Talks only of his preacher and his kirk,–
Hears five-hour sermons for his Sunday work,–
Praying and fasting till his meagre face
Gains its due length, the genuine sign of grace,–
An Ayrshire mother in the land of Knox
Her embryo poet in his cradle rocks;–
Nature, long shivering in her dim eclipse,
Steals in a sunbeam to those baby lips;
So to its home her banished smile returns,
And Scotland sweetens with the song of Burns!

The morning came; I reached the classic hall;
A clock-face eyed me, staring from the wall;
Beneath its hands a printed line I read
YOUTH IS LIFE’S SEED-TIME: so the clock-face said:
Some took its counsel, as the sequel showed,–
Sowed,–their wild oats,–and reaped as they had sowed.
How all comes back! the upward slanting floor,–
The masters’ thrones that flank the central door,–
The long, outstretching alleys that divide
The rows of desks that stand on either side,–
The staring boys, a face to every desk,
Bright, dull, pale, blooming, common, picturesque.
Grave is the Master’s look; his forehead wears
Thick rows of wrinkles, prints of worrying cares;
Uneasy lie the heads of all that rule,
His most of all whose kingdom is a school.
Supreme he sits; before the awful frown
That bends his brows the boldest eye goes down;
Not more submissive Israel heard and saw
At Sinai’s foot the Giver of the Law.
Less stern he seems, who sits in equal Mate
On the twin throne and shares the empire’s weight;
Around his lips the subtle life that plays
Steals quaintly forth in many a jesting phrase;
A lightsome nature, not so hard to chafe,
Pleasant when pleased; rough-handled, not so safe;
Some tingling memories vaguely I recall,
But to forgive him. God forgive us all!

One yet remains, whose well-remembered name
Pleads in my grateful heart its tender claim;
His was the charm magnetic, the bright look
That sheds its sunshine on the dreariest book;
A loving soul to every task he brought
That sweetly mingled with the lore he taught;
Sprung from a saintly race that never could
From youth to age be anything but good,
His few brief years in holiest labors spent,
Earth lost too soon the treasure heaven had lent.
Kindest of teachers, studious to divine
Some hint of promise in my earliest line,
These faint and faltering words thou canst not hear
Throb from a heart that holds thy memory dear.
As to the traveller’s eye the varied plain
Shows through the window of the flying train,
A mingled landscape, rather felt than seen,
A gravelly bank, a sudden flash of green,
A tangled wood, a glittering stream that flows
Through the cleft summit where the cliff once rose,
All strangely blended in a hurried gleam,
Rock, wood, waste, meadow, village, hill-side, stream,–
So, as we look behind us, life appears,
Seen through the vista of our bygone years.
Yet in the dead past’s shadow-filled domain,
Some vanished shapes the hues of life retain;
Unbidden, oft, before our dreaming eyes
From the vague mists in memory’s path they rise.
So comes his blooming image to my view,
The friend of joyous days when life was new,
Hope yet untamed, the blood of youth unchilled,
No blank arrear of promise unfulfilled,
Life’s flower yet hidden in its sheltering fold,
Its pictured canvas yet to be unrolled.
His the frank smile I vainly look to greet,
His the warm grasp my clasping hand should meet;
How would our lips renew their school-boy talk,
Our feet retrace the old familiar walk!
For thee no more earth’s cheerful morning shines
Through the green fringes of the tented pines;
Ah me! is heaven so far thou canst not hear,
Or is thy viewless spirit hovering near,
A fair young presence, bright with morning’s glow,
The fresh-cheeked boy of fifty years ago?
Yes, fifty years, with all their circling suns,
Behind them all my glance reverted runs;
Where now that time remote, its griefs, its joys,
Where are its gray-haired men, its bright-haired boys?
Where is the patriarch time could hardly tire,–
The good old, wrinkled, immemorial “squire “?
(An honest treasurer, like a black-plumed swan,
Not every day our eyes may look upon.)
Where the tough champion who, with Calvin’s sword,
In wordy conflicts battled for the Lord?
Where the grave scholar, lonely, calm, austere,
Whose voice like music charmed the listening ear,
Whose light rekindled, like the morning star
Still shines upon us through the gates ajar?
Where the still, solemn, weary, sad-eyed man,
Whose care-worn face and wandering eyes would scan,–
His features wasted in the lingering strife
With the pale foe that drains the student’s life?
Where my old friend, the scholar, teacher, saint,
Whose creed, some hinted, showed a speck of taint;
He broached his own opinion, which is not
Lightly to be forgiven or forgot;
Some riddle’s point,–I scarce remember now,–
Homoi-, perhaps, where they said homo-ou.
(If the unlettered greatly wish to know
Where lies the difference betwixt oi and o,
Those of the curious who have time may search
Among the stale conundrums of their church.)
Beneath his roof his peaceful life I shared,
And for his modes of faith I little cared,–
I, taught to judge men’s dogmas by their deeds,
Long ere the days of india-rubber creeds.