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“I DO believe, and yet, in grief,
I pray for help to unbelief;
For needful strength aside to lay
The daily cumberings of my way.

“I ‘m sick at heart of craft and cant,
Sick of the crazed enthusiast’s rant,
Profession’s smooth hypocrisies,
And creeds of iron, and lives of ease.

“I ponder o’er the sacred word,
I read the record of our Lord;
And, weak and troubled, envy them
Who touched His seamless garment’s hem;

“Who saw the tears of love He wept
Above the grave where Lazarus slept;
And heard, amidst the shadows dim
Of Olivet, His evening hymn.

“How blessed the swineherd’s low estate,
The beggar crouching at the gate,
The leper loathly and abhorred,
Whose eyes of flesh beheld the Lord!

“O sacred soil His sandals pressed!
Sweet fountains of His noonday rest!
O light and air of Palestine,
Impregnate with His life divine!

“Oh, bear me thither! Let me look
On Siloa’s pool, and Kedron’s brook;
Kneel at Gethsemane, and by
Gennesaret walk, before I die!

“Methinks this cold and northern night
Would melt before that Orient light;
And, wet by Hermon’s dew and rain,
My childhood’s faith revive again!”

So spake my friend, one autumn day,
Where the still river slid away
Beneath us, and above the brown
Red curtains of the woods shut down.

Then said I,–for I could not brook
The mute appealing of his look,–
“I, too, am weak, and faith is small,
And blindness happeneth unto all.

“Yet, sometimes glimpses on my sight,
Through present wrong, the eternal right;
And, step by step, since time began,
I see the steady gain of man;

“That all of good the past hath had
Remains to make our own time glad,
Our common daily life divine,
And every land a Palestine.

“Thou weariest of thy present state;
What gain to thee time’s holiest date?
The doubter now perchance had been
As High Priest or as Pilate then!

“What thought Chorazin’s scribes? What faith
In Him had Nain and Nazareth?
Of the few followers whom He led
One sold Him,–all forsook and fled.

“O friend! we need nor rock nor sand,
Nor storied stream of Morning-Land;
The heavens are glassed in Merrimac,–
What more could Jordan render back?

“We lack but open eye and ear
To find the Orient’s marvels here;
The still small voice in autumn’s hush,
Yon maple wood the burning bush.

“For still the new transcends the old,
In signs and tokens manifold;
Slaves rise up men; the olive waves,
With roots deep set in battle graves!

“Through the harsh noises of our day
A low, sweet prelude finds its way;
Through clouds of doubt, and creeds of fear,
A light is breaking, calm and clear.

“That song of Love, now low and far,
Erelong shall swell from star to star!
That light, the breaking day, which tips
The golden-spired Apocalypse!”

Then, when my good friend shook his head,
And, sighing, sadly smiled, I said:
“Thou mind’st me of a story told
In rare Bernardin’s leaves of gold.”

And while the slanted sunbeams wove
The shadows of the frost-stained grove,
And, picturing all, the river ran
O’er cloud and wood, I thus began:–

. . . . . . . . . . . . .

In Mount Valerien’s chestnut wood
The Chapel of the Hermits stood;
And thither, at the close of day,
Came two old pilgrims, worn and gray.

One, whose impetuous youth defied
The storms of Baikal’s wintry side,
And mused and dreamed where tropic day
Flamed o’er his lost Virginia’s bay.

His simple tale of love and woe
All hearts had melted, high or low;–
A blissful pain, a sweet distress,
Immortal in its tenderness.