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For the haunters of fields they all shunn’d me by flight;
The men in their horror, the women in fright;
None ever remain’d save a child once that sported
Among the wild bluebells, and playfully courted
The breeze; and beside him a speckled snake lay
Tight strangled, because it had hiss’d him away
From the flower at his finger; he rose and drew near
Like a Son of Immortals, one born to no fear,
But with strength of black locks and with eyes azure bright
To grow to large manhood of merciful might.
He came, with his face of bold wonder, to feel,
The hair of my side, and to lift up my heel,
And question’d my face with wide eyes; but when under
My lids he saw tears,–for I wept at his wonder,
He stroked me, and utter’d such kindliness then,
That the once love of women, the friendship of men
In past sorrow, no kindness e’er came like a kiss
On my heart in its desolate day such as this!
And I yearn’d at his cheeks in my love, and down bent,
And lifted him up in my arms with intent
To kiss him,–but he cruel-kindly, alas!
Held out to my lips a pluck’d handful of grass!
Then I dropt him in horror, but felt as I fled
The stone he indignantly hurl’d at my head,
That dissever’d my ear,–but I felt not, whose fate
Was to meet more distress in his love that his hate!

Thus I wander’d, companion’d of grief and forlorn
Till I wish’d for that land where my being was born
But what was that land with its love, where my home
Was self-shut against me; for why should I come
Like an after-distress to my gray-bearded father,
With a blight to the last of his sight?–let him rather
Lament for me dead, and shed tears in the urn
Where I was not, and still in fond memory turn
To his son even such as he left him. Oh, how
Could I walk with the youth once my fellows, but now
Like Gods to my humbled estate?–or how bear
The steeds once the pride of my eyes and the care
Of my hands? Then I turn’d me self-banish’d, and came
Into Thessaly here, where I met with the same
As myself. I have heard how they met by a stream
In games, and were suddenly changed by a scream
That made wretches of many, as she roll’d her wild eyes
Against heaven, and so vanish’d.–The gentle and wise
Lose their thoughts in deep studies, and others their ill
In the mirth of mankind where they mingle them still.