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Thus they fled–not forgotten–but often to grow
Like fears in my eyes, when I walk’d to and fro
In the shadows, and felt from some beings unseen
The warm touch of kisses, but clean or unclean
I knew not, nor whether the love I had won
Was of heaven or hell–till one day in the sun,
In its very noon-blaze, I could fancy a thing
Of beauty, but faint as the cloud-mirrors fling
On the gaze of the shepherd that watches the sky,
Half-seen and half-dream’d in the soul of his eye.
And when in my musings I gazed on the stream,
In motionless trances of thought, there would seem
A face like that face, looking upward through mine:
With his eyes full of love, and the dim-drownd shine
Of limbs and fair garments, like clouds in that blue
Serene:–there I stood for long hours but to view
Those fond earnest eyes that were ever uplifted
Towards me, and wink’d as the water-weed drifted
Between; but the fish knew that presence, and plied
Their long curvy tails, and swift darted aside.

There I gazed for lost time, and forgot all the things
That once had been wonders–the fishes with wings,
And the glimmer of magnified eyes that look’d up
From the glooms of the bottom like pearls in a cup,
And the huge endless serpent of silvery gleam,
Slow winding along like a tide in the stream.
Some maid of the waters, some Naiad, methought
Held me dear in the pearl of her eye–and I brought
My wish to that fancy; and often I dash’d
My limbs in the water, and suddenly splash’d
The cool drops around me, yet clung to the brink,
Chill’d by watery fears, how that beauty might sink
With my life in her arms to her garden, and bind me
With its long tangled grasses, or cruelly wind me
In some eddy to hum out my life in her ear,
Like a spider-caught bee,–and in aid of that fear
Came the tardy remembrance–Oh falsest of men!
Why was not that beauty remember’d till then?
My love, my safe love, whose glad life would have run
Into mine–like a drop–that our fate might be one,
That now, even now,–may-be,–clasp’d in a dream,
That form which I gave to some jilt of the stream,
And gazed with fond eyes that her tears tried to smother
On a mock of those eyes that I gave to another!

Then I rose from the stream, but the eyes of my mind,
Still full of the tempter, kept gazing behind
On her crystalline face, while I painfully leapt
To the bank, and shook off the curst waters, and wept
With my brow in the reeds; and the reeds to my ear
Bow’d, bent by no wind, and in whispers of fear,
Growing small with large secrets, foretold me of one
That loved me,–but oh to fly from her, and shun
Her love like a pest–though her love was as true
To mine as her stream to the heavenly blue;
For why should I love her with love that would bring
All misfortune, like hate, on so joyous a thing?
Because of her rival,–even Her whose witch-face
I had slighted, and therefore was doom’d in that place
To roam, and had roam’d, where all horrors grew rank,
Nine days ere I wept with my brow on that bank;
Her name be not named, but her spite would not fail
To our love like a blight; and they told me the tale
Of Scylla,–and Picus, imprison’d to speak
His shrill-screaming woe through a woodpecker’s beak.