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Youth
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On the third day the gale died out, and by-and-by a north-country tug picked us up. We took sixteen days in all to get from London to the Tyne! When we got into dock we had lost our turn for loading, and they hauled us off to a tier where we remained for a month. Mrs. Beard (the captains name was Beard) came from Colchester to see the old man. She lived on board. The crew of runners had left, and there remained only the officers, one boy, and the steward, a mulatto who answered to the name of Abraham. Mrs. Beard was an old woman, with a race all wrinkled and ruddy like a winter apple, and the figure of a young girl. She caught sight of me once, sewing on a button, and insisted on having my shirts to repair. This was something different from the captains wives I had known on board crack clippers. When I brought her the shirts, she said: And the
socks? They want mending, I am sure, and JohnsCaptain Beardsthings are all in order now. I would be glad of something to do. Bless the old woman. She overhauled my outfit for me, and meantime I read for the first time Sartor Resartus and Burnabys Ride to Khiva. I didnt understand much of the first then; but I remember I preferred the soldier to the philosopher at the time; a preference which life has only confirmed. One was a man, and the other was either moreor less. However, they are both dead, and Mrs. Beard is dead, and youth, strength, genius, thoughts, achievements, simple heartsall die …. No matter.
They loaded us at last. We shipped a crew. Eight able seamen and two boys. We hauled off one evening to the buoys at the dock-gates, ready to go out, and with a fair prospect of beginning the voyage next day. Mrs. Beard was to start for home by a late train. When the ship was fast we went to tea. We sat rather silent through the mealMahon, the old couple, and I. I finished first, and slipped away for a smoke, my cabin being in a deck-house just against the poop. It was high water, blowing fresh with a drizzle; the double dockgates were opened, and the steam colliers were going in and out in the darkness with their lights burning bright, a great plashing of propellers, rattling of winches, and a lot of hailing on the pier-heads. I watched the procession of head-lights gliding high and of green lights gliding low in the night, when suddenly a red gleam flashed at me, vanished, came into view again, and remained. The fore-end of a steamer loomed up close. I shouted down the cabin, Come up, quick! and then heard a startled voice saying afar in the dark, Stop her, sir. A bell jingled. Another voice cried warningly, We are going right into that bark, sir. The answer to this was a gruff All right, and the next thing was a heavy crash as the steamer struck a glancing blow with the bluff of her bow about our fore-rigging. There was a moment of confusion, yelling, and running about. Steam roared. Then somebody was heard saying, All clear, sir. … Are you all right? asked the gruff voice. I had jumped forward to see the damage, and hailed back, I think so. Easy astern, said the gruff voice. A bell jingled. What steamer is that? screamed Mahon. By that time she was no more to us than a bulky shadow maneuvering a little way off. They shouted at us some namea womans name, Miranda or Melissaor some such thing. This means another month in this beastly hole, said Mahon to me, as we peered with lamps about the splintered bulwarks and broken braces. But wheres the captain?