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Youth
by
I have known its fascinations since: I have seen the mysterious shores, the still water, the lands of brown nations, where a stealthy Nemesis lies in wait, pursues, overtakes so many of the conquering race, who are proud of their wisdom, of their knowledge, of their strength. But for me all the East is contained in that vision of my youth. It is all in that moment when I opened my young eyes on it. I came upon it from a tussle with the seaand I was youngand I saw it looking at me. And this is all that is left of it! Only a moment; a moment of strength, of romance, of glamourof youth! … A flick of sunshine upon a strange shore, the time to remember, the time for a sigh, andgood-by!NightGood-by … !
He drank.
Ah! The good old timethe good
old time. Youth and the sea. Glamour and the sea! The good, strong sea, the salt, bitter sea, that could whisper to you and roar at you and knock your breath out of you.
He drank again.
By all thats wonderful, it is the sea, I believe, the sea itselfor is it youth alone? Who can tell? But you hereyou all had something out of life: money, lovewhatever one gets on shoreand, tell me, wasnt that the best time, that time when we were young at sea; young and had nothing, on the sea that gives nothing, except hard knocksand sometimes a chance to feel your strengththat onlywhat you all regret?
And we all nodded at him: the man of finance, the man of accounts, the man of law, we all nodded at him over the polished table that like a still sheet of brown water reflected our faces, lined, wrinkled; our faces marked by toil, by deceptions, by success, by love; our weary eyes looking still, looking always, looking anxiously for something out of life, that while it is expected is already gonehas passed unseen, in a sigh, in a flashtogether with the youth, with the strength, with the romance of illusions.