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He was not angry, then. That was her first thought. And then again came that insane desire to laugh. After all, why was she crying? Tots apparently saw no cause for discomfiture.

With an effort she controlled herself.

“No; I’m not hungry,” she said. “Won’t you–please–settle this matter now?”

“Only stop cryin’,” said Tots. “You have? I say, what a fib! Well, I suppose I must take your word for it. Now, little one, what is it you want me to do?”

She raised her head in sheer astonishment.

No, there was no trace of anger in his face, neither did it betray any disappointment. Complacent, kindly, quizzical, his eyes met hers, and her heart gave a sudden, inexplicable bound.

“I–thought you would understand,” she faltered. “We–we can’t go on being engaged, can we?”

“No,” said Tots with instant decision. “Shouldn’t dream of borin’ you to that extent. I’ve had enough of it myself as well.” He uttered his pleasant, careless laugh. “I really don’t wonder that my courtin’ made you feel spiteful,” he said. “I’m glad you’re in favour of cuttin’ it too.”

Ruth stared at him blankly. Was he laughing at her? Was this to be her punishment?

He had straightened himself and was smiling down at her, his head within a foot of the bulging ceiling.

“Tell you what!” he suddenly said. “You eat some breakfast like a good girl, and then–I’ll show you somethin’. Perhaps you’ll let me join you?”

He did not wait for her consent, but sat down at the table. Ruth rose. He was putting her off, she felt, and she could not bear it. It had cost her more than he would ever realise to tell him the truth.

“I’m very sorry,” she said unsteadily, “but–I don’t think we quite understand each other yet. You know”–her voice failed suddenly, but she struggled to recover it, and succeeded–“I am not clever–like other women. I want plain speaking, not hints, I want to be told–in so many words–that you have set me free.”

“Why should I tell you what isn’t true?” said Tots. He stretched out his hand to her without rising. “I haven’t set you free,” he said, “and I’m not goin’ to. Is that plain enough?”

He caught her hand with the words and drew her gently towards him. “I’ll tell you what I am goin’ to do,” he said. “Come quite close. I want to whisper. You needn’t be anxious. This chair is strong enough for two.”

Gentle as he was in speech and action, there was something irresistible about him at that moment–something to which Ruth yielded because there was no alternative. She went to him trembling, and he drew her down beside him, holding her every instant closer to him.

“Still frightened?” he asked her very tenderly. “Still wantin’ to run away?”

She hid her face against him dumbly. She could not answer him in words.

He went on speaking, softly, soothingly, as if she had been a child.

“People make a ridiculous fuss about gettin’ married,” he said. “It’s the fashion nowadays to make a sort of Punch and Judy show of it for all the people one ever met, and a few hundreds besides, to come and gape at. But you and I are not goin’ to do that. We’re goin’ to show some sense, and get married on the quiet, in a little village church I know of; and then we’re goin’ into retirement for a time, and when we come out we shall be old married people, and no one will want to pelt us with shoes and things. Now I’ve got a weddin’-ring in my pocket, and I hope it’ll fit better than the other. And I’ve got a special license too. It’s a nice, fine mornin’, isn’t it? And that’s all we want. Let’s have some breakfast, and then go and get married!”

Ruth raised her head with a gasp. Unexpected as was the whole turn of events, she was utterly unprepared for this astounding suggestion.

“But–but–” she faltered.

And then for the first time she saw Tots’s eyes, opened wide and looking at her with an expression there was no mistaking. He took her face between his hands.

“Yes, I know all that,” he said, speaking below his breath. “But it doesn’t count, dear–believe me, it doesn’t. The only thing that is really indispensable, we have. So why not–make that do?”

“Oh, I don’t know,” she gasped. “I don’t know.”

She was quivering as a harp quivers under the fingers of one who knows, and her whole soul was thrilling to the wild, tumultuous music that he had called into being there. It was almost more than she could bear–this miracle that had been wrought upon her. Tots’s eyes still held her own, and it was as if thereby he showed her all that was best in life.

“Why not?” he said again very softly.

And suddenly she realised overwhelmingly how close his lips were to her own. In that moment she also knew that greater thing which is immortal. And so she answered him at last in his own words, with a rush of passionate willingness that swept away all fear:

“Why not?”

As their lips met, it seemed to her that her eyes were opened for the first time in her life; and everywhere–above, around, within her–were living sparks, dazzling, wonderful, unquenchable, of the Eternal Flame.