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The Senior Surgical Interne did a dressing in the ward that morning. He had been in to see Augustus Baird, and he felt uneasy. He vented it on Tony, the Italian, with a stiletto thrust in his neck, by jerking at the adhesive. Tony wailed, and Jane Brown, who was the “dirty” nurse–which does not mean what it appears to mean, but is the person who receives the soiled dressings–Jane Brown gritted her teeth.

“Keep quiet,” said the S.S.I., who was a good fellow, but had never been stabbed in the neck for running away with somebody else’s wife.

“Eet hurt,” said Tony. “Ow.”

Jane Brown turned very pink.

“Why don’t you let me cut it off properly?” she said, in a strangled tone.

The total result of this was that Jane Brown was reprimanded by the First Assistant, and learned some things about ethics.

“But,” she protested, “it was both stupid and cruel. And if I know I am right—-“

“How are you to know you are right?” demanded the First Assistant, crossly. Her feet were stinging. “‘A little knowledge is a dangerous thing.'” This was a favorite quotation of hers, although not Browning. “Nurses in hospitals are there to carry out the doctor’s orders. Not to think or to say what they think unless they are asked. To be intelligent, but—-“

“But not too intelligent!” said the Probationer. “I see.”

This was duly reported to the Head, who observed that it was merely what she had expected and extremely pert. Her cold was hardly any better.

It was taking the Probationer quite a time to realise her own total lack of significance in all this. She had been accustomed to men who rose when a woman entered a room and remained standing as long as she stood. And now she was in a new world, where she had to rise and remain standing while a cocky youth in ducks, just out of medical college, sauntered in with his hands in his pockets and took a boutonniere from the ward bouquet.

It was probably extremely good for her.

She was frightfully tired that day, and toward evening the little glow of service began to fade. There seemed to be nothing to do for Johnny but to wait. Doctor Willie had seemed to think that nature would clear matters up there, and had requested no operation. She smoothed beds and carried cups of water and broke another thermometer. And she put the eggs from home in the ward pantry and made egg-nogs of them for Stanislas Krzykolski, who was unaccountably upset as to stomach.

She had entirely forgotten Twenty-two. He had stayed away all that day, in a sort of faint hope that she would miss him. But she had not. She was feeling rather worried, to tell the truth. For a Staff surgeon going through the ward, had stopped by Johnny’s bed and examined the pupils of his eyes, and had then exchanged a glance with the Senior Surgical Interne that had perplexed her.

In the chapel at prayers that evening all around her the nurses sat and rested, their tired hands folded in their laps. They talked a little among themselves, but it was only a buzzing that reached the Probationer faintly. Some one near was talking about something that was missing.

“Gone?” she said. “Of course it is gone. The bath-room man reported it to me and I went and looked.”

“But who in the world would take it?”

“My dear,” said the first speaker, “who does take things in a hospital, anyhow? Only–a tin sign!”

It was then that the Head came in. She swept in; her grey gown, her grey hair gave her a majesty that filled the Probationer with awe. Behind her came the First Assistant with the prayer-book and hymnal. The Head believed in form.

Jane Brown offered up a little prayer that night for Johnny Fraser, and another little one without words, that Doctor Willie was right. She sat and rested her weary young body, and remembered how Doctor Willie was loved and respected, and the years he had cared for the whole countryside. And the peace of the quiet room, with the Easter lilies on the tiny altar, brought rest to her.