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Thy Heart’s Desire
by
She had lost command over her voice, and the shrill note of horror in it was unmistakable. The man heard it, and shrank in his turn.
“I’m so sorry, John,” she murmured, raising her great bright eyes to his face. They had not lost their goaded expression, though they were full of tears. “I’m awfully sorry; but I’m just nervous and stupid, and I can’t bear /any one/ to touch me when I’m nervous.”
“Here’s Broomhurst, my dear! I made a mistake in his name after all, I find. I told you /Brookfield/, I believe, didn’t I? Well, it isn’t Brookfield, he says; it’s Broomhurst.”
Mrs. Drayton had walked some little distance across the plain to meet and welcome the expected guest. She stood quietly waiting while her husband stammered over his incoherent sentences, and then put out her hand.
“We are very glad to see you,” she said, with a quick glance at the new-comer’s face as she spoke.
As they walked together toward the tent, after the first greetings, she felt his keen eyes upon her before he turned to her husband.
“I’m afraid Mrs. Drayton finds the climate trying?” he asked. “Perhaps she ought not to have come so far in this heat?”
“Kathie is often pale. You /do/ look white to-day, my dear,” he observed, turning anxiously toward his wife.
“Do I?” she replied. The unsteadiness of her tone was hardly appreciable, but it was not lost on Broomhurst’s quick ears. “Oh, I don’t think so. I /feel/ very well.”
“I’ll come and see if they’ve fixed you up all right,” said Drayton, following his companion toward the new tent that had been pitched at some little distance from the large one.
“We shall see you at dinner then?” Mrs. Drayton observed in reply to Broomhurst’s smile as they parted.
She entered the tent slowly, and, moving up to the table already laid for dinner, began to rearrange the things upon it in a purposeless, mechanical fashion.
After a moment she sank down upon a seat opposite the open entrance, and put her hand to her head.
“What is the matter with me?” she thought, wearily. “All the week I’ve been looking forward to seeing this man–/any/ man, /any one/ to take off the edge of this.” She shuddered. Even in thought she hesitated to analyse the feeling that possessed her. “Well, he’s here, and I think I feel /worse/.” Her eyes travelled toward the hills she had been used to watch at this hour, and rested on them with a vague, unseeing gaze.
“Tired Kathie? A penny for your thoughts, my dear,” said her husband, coming in presently to find her still sitting there.
“I’m thinking what a curious world this is, and what an ironical vein of humour the gods who look after it must possess,” she replied, with a mirthless laugh, rising as she spoke.
John looked puzzled.
“Funny my having known Broomhurst before, you mean?” he said doubtfully.
“I was fishing down at Lynmouth this time last year,” Broomhurst said at dinner. “You know Lynmouth, Mrs. Drayton? Do you never imagine you hear the gurgling of the stream? I am tantalised already by the sound of it rushing through the beautiful green gloom of those woods– /aren’t/ they lovely? And /I/ haven’t been in this burnt-up spot as many hours as you’ve had months of it.”
She smiled a little.
“You must learn to possess your soul in patience,” she said, and glanced inconsequently from Broomhurst to her husband, and then dropped her eyes and was silent a moment.
John was obviously, and a little audibly, enjoying his dinner. He sat with his chair pushed close to the table, and his elbows awkwardly raised, swallowing his soup in gulps. He grasped his spoon tightly in his bony hand, so that its swollen joints stood out larger and uglier than ever, his wife thought.
Her eyes wandered to Broomhurst’s hands. They were well shaped, and, though not small, there was a look of refinement about them; he had a way of touching things delicately, a little lingeringly, she noticed. There was an air of distinction about his clear-cut, clean-shaven face, possibly intensified by contrast with Drayton’s blurred features; and it was, perhaps, also by contrast with the gray cuffs that showed beneath John’s ill-cut drab suit that the linen Broomhurst wore seemed to her particularly spotless.