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Three Commandments In The Vulgar Tongue
by
“I cannot tell what it was held my tongue silent, that made me only bow my head in assent, and press my lips together. I knew I was pale as death, for as I turned to leave the room I caught sight of my face in a little mirror tacked on the door, and I hardly recognised myself.
“‘Good-day, Mr. Fawdor,’ said the governor, handing me the map. ‘There is some brandy in your stores; be careful that none of your Indians get it. If they try to desert, you know what to do.’ With a gesture of dismissal he turned, and began to speak with the chief trader.
“For me, I went from that room like a man condemned to die. Fort Ungava in Labrador,–a thousand miles away, over a barren, savage country, and in winter too; for it would be winter there immediately! It was an exile to Siberia, and far worse than Siberia; for there are many there to share the fellowship of misery, and I was likely to be the only white man at Fort Ungava. As I passed from the door of the Post the words of Shakespeare which had brought all this about sang in my ears.” He ceased speaking, and sank back wearily among the skins of his couch. Out of the enveloping silence Pierre’s voice came softly:
“Thou shalt judge with the minds of twelve men, and the heart of one woman.”
II
“The journey to the village of Pont Croix was that of a man walking over graves. Every step sent a pang to my heart,–a boy of twenty-one, grown old in a moment. It was not that I had gone a little lame from a hurt got on the expedition with the governor, but my whole life seemed suddenly lamed. Why did I go? Ah, you do not know how discipline gets into a man’s bones, the pride, the indignant pride of obedience! At that hour I swore that I should myself be the governor of that Company one day,–the boast of loud-hearted youth. I had angry visions, I dreamed absurd dreams, but I did not think of disobeying. It was an unheard-of journey at such a time, but I swore that I would do it, that it should go into the records of the Company.
“I reached the village, found the Indians, and at once moved on to the settlement where we were to stay that night. Then my knee began to pain me. I feared inflammation; so in the dead of night I walked back to the village, roused a trader of the Company, got some liniment and other trifles, and arrived again at St. Saviour’s before dawn. My few clothes and necessaries came in the course of the morning, and by noon we were fairly started on the path to exile.
“I remember that we came to a lofty point on the St. Lawrence just before we plunged into the woods, to see the great stream no more. I stood and looked back up the river towards the point where Lachine lay. All that went to make the life of a Company’s man possible was there; and there, too, were those with whom I had tented and travelled for three long months,–eaten with them, cared for them, used for them all the woodcraft that I knew. I could not think that it would be a young man’s lifetime before I set eyes on that scene again. Never from that day to this have I seen the broad, sweet river where I spent the three happiest years of my life. I can see now the tall shining heights of Quebec, the pretty wooded Island of Orleans, the winding channel, so deep, so strong. The sun was three-fourths of its way down in the west, and already the sky was taking on the deep red and purple of autumn. Somehow, the thing that struck me most in the scene was a bunch of pines, solemn and quiet, their tops burnished by the afternoon light. Tears would have been easy then. But my pride drove them back from my eyes to my angry heart. Besides, there were my Indians waiting, and the long journey lay before us. Then, perhaps because there was none nearer to make farewell to, or I know not why, I waved my hand towards the distant village of Lachine, and, with the sweet maid in my mind who had so gently parted from me yesterday, I cried, ‘Good-bye, and God bless you.'”