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I am glad he is going to be in Atwater all summer. We have so few really nice young men here; they go away just as soon as they grow up and those who stay are just the muffs. I wonder if I shall see Mr. Shirley soon again.

June Thirtieth.

It does not seem possible that it is only a month since my last entry. It seems more like a year–a delightful year. I can’t believe that I am the same Beatrice Mason who wrote then. And I am not, either. She was just a simple little girl, knowing nothing but romantic dreams. I feel that I am very much changed. Life seems so grand and high and beautiful. I want to be a true noble woman. Only such a woman could be worthy of–of–a fine, noble man. But when I tried to say something like this to Sara she replied calmly:

“My dear child, the average woman is quite good enough for the average man. If she can cook his meals decently and keep his buttons sewed on and doesn’t nag him he will think that life is a pretty comfortable affair. And that reminds me, I saw holes in your black lace stockings yesterday. Better go and darn them at once. ‘Procrastination is the thief of time.'”

Sara cannot understand.

Blanche Lawrence was married yesterday to Ted Martin. I thought it the most solemn and sacred thing I had ever listened to–the marriage ceremony, I mean. I had never thought much about it before. I don’t see how Blanche could care anything for Ted–he is so stout and dumpy; with shallow blue eyes and a little pale moustache. I must say I do not like fair men. But there is no doubt that he and Blanche love each other devotedly and that fact sufficed to make the service very beautiful to me–those two people pledging each other to go through life together, meeting its storm and sunshine hand in hand, thinking joy the sweeter because they shared it, finding sorrow sacred because it came to them both.

When Sara and I walked home from the church Sara said, “Well, considering the chances she has had, Blanche Lawrence hasn’t done so well after all.”

“Oh, Sara,” I cried, “she has married the man she loves and who loves her. What better is there to do? I thought it beautiful.”

“They should have waited another year at least,” said Sara severely. “Ted Martin has only been practising law for a year, and he had nothing to begin with. He can’t have made enough in one year in Atwater to justify him in setting up housekeeping. I think a man ought to be ashamed of himself to take a girl from a good home to an uncertainty like that.”

“Not if she loved him and was willing to share the uncertainty,” I said softly.

“Love won’t pay the butcher’s bill,” said Sara with a sniff, “and landlords have an unfeeling preference for money over affection. Besides, Blanche is a mere child, far too young to be burdened with the responsibilities of life.”

Blanche is twenty–two years older than I am. But Sara talks as if I were a mere infant.

July Thirtieth.

Oh, I am so happy! I wonder if there is another girl in the world as happy as I am tonight. No, of course there cannot be, because there is only one Walter!

Walter and I are engaged. It happened last night when we were sitting out in the moonlight under the silver maple on the lawn. I cannot write down what he said–the words are too sacred and beautiful to be kept anywhere but in my own heart forever and ever as long as I live. And I don’t remember just what I said. But we understood each other perfectly at last.

Of course Sara had to do her best to spoil things. Just as Walter had taken my hand in his and bent forward with his splendid earnest eyes just burning into mine, and my heart was beating so furiously, Sara came to the front door and called out, “Beatrice! Beatrice! Have you your rubbers on? And don’t you think it is too damp out there for you in that heavy dew? Better come into the house, both of you. Walter has a cold now.”