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The Tidal Wave
by
But Columbine’s eyes remained open. “I’m not sleepy,” she said. “And I must speak to you. I want to know–I must know”–she faltered painfully, but forced herself to continue–“Rufus–did he–did he really come back–that night?”
Mrs. Peck’s compassion perceptibly diminished and her severity increased. “Oh, if you want the whole story,” she said, “you’d better have it and have done; that is, so far as I know it myself. There are certain ins and outs that I don’t know even yet, for Rufus can be very secretive if he likes. Well then, yes, he did come back, and he brought Mr. Knight with him. They were washed up by a great wave that dropped ’em high and dry near the quay. Mr. Knight was half drowned, and Rufus left him at Sam Jefferson’s cottage and came on here for brandy and hot milk and such. He wasn’t a penny the worse himself, but I suppose you thought it was his ghost. You behaved like as if you did, anyway. That’s all I can tell you. Mr. Knight he got better in a day or two, and he’s gone, said he’d had enough of it, and I don’t blame him neither. Now that’ll do for the present. By and by, when you’re stronger, maybe I’ll ask you to tell me something. But the doctor says as I’m not to let you talk at present.”
Mrs. Peck took up the empty cup with the words, and turned with decision to the door.
Columbine did not attempt to detain her. She had read the doubt in the good woman’s eyes, and she was thankful at that moment for the reprieve that the doctor’s fiat had secured her.
She lay for a long, long time without moving after Mrs. Peck’s departure. Her brain felt unutterably weary, but it was clear, and she was able to face the situation in all its grimness. Mr. Knight had gone. Mr. Knight had had enough of it. Had he really left without a word? Was she, then, so little to him as that? She, who had clung to him, had offered him unconditionally and without stint all that was hers!
She remembered how he had said that it would not last, that love was moonshine, love would pass. And how passionately–and withal how fruitlessly!–had she revolted against that pronouncement of his! She had declared that such was not love, and he–he had warned her against loving too well, giving too freely. With cruel distinctness it all came back to her. She felt again those hot kisses upon brow and lips and throat. Though he had warned her against giving, he had not been slow to take. He had revelled in the abandonment of that first free love of hers. He had drained her of all that she held most precious that he might drink his fill. And all for what? Again she burned from head to foot, and, groaning, hid her face. All for the making of a picture that should bring him world-wide fame! His love for her had been naught but small change flung liberally enough that he might purchase therewith the desire of his artist’s soul. It had been just a means to an end. No more than that! No more than that!
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Time passed, but she knew naught of its passing. She was in a place of bitterness very far removed from the ordinary things of life. She shed no tears. The misery and shame that burned her soul were beyond all expression or alleviation. She could have laughed over the irony of it all more easily than she could have wept.
That she–the proud and dainty, for whom no one had been good enough–should have fallen thus easily to the careless attraction of a man to whom she was nothing, nothing but a piece of prettiness to be bought as cheaply as possible and treasured not at all. Some whim of inspiration had moved him. He had obeyed his Muse. And he had been ready–he had been ready–even to offer her life in sacrifice to his idol. She did not count with him in the smallest degree. He had never cared–he had never cared!