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“You are to do the talking with the old woman, and give me a chance to look. Now say you will, and I’ll behave myself like an angel in return.”

Hester yielded, after a few discreet scruples, and when they reached Laburnum Lodge played her part so well that Lillian soon managed to stray away into one of the upper rooms which overlooked the neighboring garden. Helen was there, and with eager eyes the girl scrutinized her. She was very beautiful, in the classical style; as fair and finely molded as a statue, with magnificent dark hair and eyes, and possessed of that perfect grace which is as effective as beauty. She was alone, and when first seen was bending over a flower which she caressed and seemed to examine with great interest as she stood a long time motionless before it. Then she began to pace slowly around and around the little grass plot, her hands hanging loosely clasped before her, and her eyes fixed on vacancy as if absorbed in thought. But as the first effect of her beauty passed away, Lillian found something peculiar about her. It was not the somewhat foreign dress and ornaments she wore; it was in her face, her movements, and the tone of her voice, for as she walked she sang a low, monotonous song, as if unconsciously. Lillian watched her keenly, marking the aimless motions of the little hands, the apathy of the lovely face, and the mirthless accent of the voice; but most of all the vacant fixture of the great dark eyes. Around and around she went, with an elastic step and a mechanical regularity wearisome to witness.

What is the matter with her? thought Lillian anxiously, as this painful impression increased with every scrutiny of the unconscious girl. So abashed was she that Hester’s call was unheard, and Hester was unseen as she came and stood beside her. Both looked a moment, and as they looked an old lady came from the house and led Helen in, still murmuring her monotonous song and moving her hands as if to catch and hold the sunshine.

“Poor dear, poor dear. No wonder Paul turns sad and won’t talk of her, and that she don’t see anyone,” sighed Hester pitifully.

“What is it? I see, but don’t understand,” whispered Lillian.

“She’s an innocent, deary, an idiot, though that’s a hard word for a pretty creature like her.”

“How terrible! Come away, Hester, and never breathe to anyone what we have seen.” And with a shudder and sense of pain and pity lying heavy at her heart, she hurried away, feeling doubly guilty in the discovery of this affliction. The thought of it haunted her continually; the memory of the lonely girl gave her no peace; and a consciousness of deceit burdened her unspeakably, especially in Paul’s presence. This lasted for a week, then Lillian resolved to confess, hoping that when he found she knew the truth he would let her share his cross and help to lighten it. Waiting her opportunity, she seized a moment when her mother was absent, and with her usual frankness spoke out impetuously.

“Paul, I’ve done wrong, and I can have no peace till I am pardoned. I have seen Helen.”

“Where, when, and how?” he asked, looking disturbed and yet relieved.

She told him rapidly, and as she ended she looked up at him with her sweet face, so full of pity, shame, and grief it would have been impossible to deny her anything.

“Can you forgive me for discovering this affliction?”

“I think I could forgive you a far greater fault, Lillian,” he answered, in a tone that said many things.

“But deceit is so mean, so dishonorable and contemptible, how can you so easily pardon it in me?” she asked, quite overcome by this forgiveness, granted without any reproach.

“Then you would find it hard to pardon such a thing in another?” he said, with the expression that always puzzled her.