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The Marriages
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It was indeed not a happy moment, and she murmured: “No; if you HAD thought of her–!”
This made Godfrey face her again with a small flare in his eyes. “Oh THEN it didn’t prevent. I thought that woman really good. I believed in her.”
“Is she VERY bad?”
“I shall never mention her to you again,” he returned with dignity.
“You may believe I won’t speak of her! So father doesn’t know?” the girl added.
“Doesn’t know what?”
“That I said what I did to Mrs. Churchley.”
He had a momentary pause. “I don’t think so, but you must find out for yourself.”
“I shall find out,” said Adela. “But what had Mrs. Churchley to do with it?”
“With MY misery? I told her. I had to tell some one.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
He appeared–though but after an instant–to know exactly why. “Oh you take things so beastly hard–you make such rows.” Adela covered her face with her hands and he went on: “What I wanted was comfort– not to be lashed up. I thought I should go mad. I wanted Mrs. Churchley to break it to father, to intercede for me and help him to meet it. She was awfully kind to me, she listened and she understood; she could fancy how it had happened. Without her I shouldn’t have pulled through. She liked me, you know,” he further explained, and as if it were quite worth mentioning–all the more that it was pleasant to him. “She said she’d do what she could for me. She was full of sympathy and resource. I really leaned on her. But when YOU cut in of course it spoiled everything. That’s why I was so furious with you. She couldn’t do anything then.”
Adela dropped her hands, staring; she felt she had walked in darkness. “So that he had to meet it alone?”
“Dame!” said Godfrey, who had got up his French tremendously.
Muriel came to the door to say papa wished the two others to join them, and the next day Godfrey returned to town. His father remained at Brinton, without an intermission, the rest of the summer and the whole of the autumn, and Adela had a chance to find out, as she had said, whether he knew she had interfered. But in spite of her chance she never found out. He knew Mrs. Churchley had thrown him over and he knew his daughter rejoiced in it, but he appeared not to have divined the relation between the two facts. It was strange that one of the matters he was clearest about–Adela’s secret triumph–should have been just the thing which from this time on justified less and less such a confidence. She was too sorry for him to be consistently glad. She watched his attempts to wind himself up on the subject of shorthorns and drainage, and she favoured to the utmost of her ability his intermittent disposition to make a figure in orchids. She wondered whether they mightn’t have a few people at Brinton; but when she mentioned the idea he asked what in the world there would be to attract them. It was a confoundedly stupid house, he remarked– with all respect to HER cleverness. Beatrice and Muriel were mystified; the prospect of going out immensely had faded so utterly away. They were apparently not to go out at all. Colonel Chart was aimless and bored; he paced up and down and went back to smoking, which was bad for him, and looked drearily out of windows as if on the bare chance that something might arrive. Did he expect Mrs. Churchley to arrive, did he expect her to relent on finding she couldn’t live without him? It was Adela’s belief that she gave no sign. But the girl thought it really remarkable of her not to have betrayed her ingenious young visitor. Adela’s judgement of human nature was perhaps harsh, but she believed that most women, given the various facts, wouldn’t have been so forbearing. This lady’s conception of the point of honour placed her there in a finer and purer light than had at all originally promised to shine about her.