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At times, during his college course and his years at the law school, he had yielded to this impulse and broken away–now toward extravagance and dissipation, and then, when the reaction came, toward a romantic devotion to work among the poor. He had felt his father’s disapproval for both of these forms of imprudence; but is was never expressed in a harsh or violent way, always with a certain tolerant patience, such as one might show for the mistakes and vagaries of the very young. John Weightman was not hasty, impulsive, inconsiderate, even toward his own children. With them, as with the rest of the world, he felt that he had a reputation to maintain, a theory to vindicate. He could afford to give them time to see that he was absolutely right.

One of his favorite Scripture quotations was, “Wait on the Lord.”

He had applied it to real estate and to people, with profitable results.

But to human persons the sensation of being waited for is not always agreeable. Sometimes, especially with the young, it produces a vague restlessness, a dumb resentment, which is increased by the fact that one can hardly explain or justify it. Of this John Weightman was not conscious. It lay beyond his horizon. He did not take it into account in the plan of life which he made for himself and for his family as the sharers and inheritors of his success.

“Father plays us,” said Harold, in a moment of irritation, to his mother, “like pieces in a game of chess.

“My dear,” said that lady, whose faith in her husband was religious, “you ought not to speak so impatiently. At least he wins the game. He is one of the most respected men in New York. And he is very generous, too.”

“I wish he would be more generous in letting us be ourselves,” said the young man. “He always has something in view for us and expects to move us up to it.”

“But isn’t it always for our benefit?” replied his mother. “Look what a position we have. No one can say there is any taint on our money. There are no rumors about your father. He has kept the laws of God and of man. He has never made any mistakes.” Harold got up from his chair and poked the fire. Then he came back to the ample, well-gowned, firm-looking lady, and sat beside her on the sofa. He took her hand gently and looked at the two rings–a thin band of yellow gold, and a small solitaire diamond–which kept their place on her third finger in modest dignity, as if not shamed, but rather justified, by the splendor of the emerald which glittered beside them.

“Mother,” he said, “you have a wonderful hand. And father made no mistake when he won you. But are you sure he has always been so inerrant?”

“Harold,” she exclaimed, a little stiffly, “what do you mean? His life is an open book.”

“Oh,” he answered, “I don’t mean anything bad, mother dear. I know the governor’s life is an open book–a ledger, if you like, kept in the best bookkeeping hand, and always ready for inspection–every page correct, and showing a handsome balance. But isn’t it a mistake not to allow us to make our own mistakes, to learn for ourselves, to live our own lives? Must we be always working for ‘the balance,’ in one thing or another? I want to be myself–to get outside of this everlasting, profitable ‘plan’–to let myself go, and lose myself for a while at least–to do the things that I want to do, just because I want to do them.”

“My boy,” said his mother, anxiously, “you are not going to do anything wrong or foolish? You know the falsehood of that old proverb about wild oats.”