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Mulvaney and I left him in the high grass near the river-bank, and went away, still keeping to the high grass, toward my horse. The shirt scratched me horribly.

We waited nearly two hours for the dusk to fall and allow me to ride off. We spoke of Ortheris in whispers, and strained our ears to catch any sound from the spot where we had left him. But we heard nothing except the wind in the plume-grass.

“I’ve bruk his head,” said Mulvaney, earnestly, “time an’ agin. I’ve nearly kilt him wid the belt, an’ yet I can’t knock thim fits out av his soft head. No! An’ he’s not soft, for he’s reasonable an’ likely by natur’. Fwhat is ut? Is ut his breedin’ which is nothin’, or his edukashin which he niver got? You that think ye know things, answer me that.”

But I found no answer. I was wondering how long Ortheris, in the bank of the river, would hold out, and whether I should be forced to help him to desert, as I had given my word.

Just as the dusk shut down and, with a very heavy heart, I was beginning to saddle up my horse, we heard wild shouts from the river.

The devils had departed from Private Stanley Ortheris, No. 22639, B Company. The loneliness, the dusk, and the waiting had driven them out as I had hoped. We set off at the double and found him plunging about wildly through the grass, with his coat off–my coat off, I mean. He was calling for us like a madman.

When we reached him he was dripping with perspiration, and trembling like a startled horse. We had great difficulty in soothing him. He complained that he was in civilian kit, and wanted to tear my clothes off his body. I ordered him to strip, and we made a second exchange as quickly as possible.

The rasp of his own “greyback” shirt and the squeak of his boots seemed to bring him to himself. He put his hands before his eyes and said–

“Wot was it? I ain’t mad, I ain’t sunstrook, an’ I’ve bin an’ gone an’ said, an’ bin an’ gone an’ done…. Wot ‘ave I bin an’ done!”

“Fwhat have you done?” said Mulvaney. “You’ve dishgraced yourself–though that’s no matter. You’ve dishgraced B Comp’ny, an’ worst av all, you’ve dishgraced Me! Me that taught you how for to walk abroad like a man–whin you was a dhirty little, fish-backed little, whimperin’ little recruity. As you are now, Stanley Orth’ris!”

Ortheris said nothing for a while, Then he unslung his belt, heavy with the badges of half a dozen regiments that his own had lain with, and handed it over to Mulvaney.

“I’m too little for to mill you, Mulvaney,” he, “an’ you’ve strook me before; but you can take an’ cut me in two with this ‘ere if you like.”

Mulvaney turned to me.

“Lave me to talk to him, sorr,” said Mulvaney.

I left, and on my way home thought a good deal over Ortheris in particular, and my friend Private Thomas Atkins whom I love, in general.

But I could not come to any conclusion of any kind whatever.

L’ENVOI

And they were stronger hands than mine
That digged the Ruby from the earth–
More cunning brains that made it worth
The large desire of a King;
And bolder hearts that through the brine
Went down the Perfect Pearl to bring.

Lo, I have wrought in common clay
Rude figures of a rough-hewn race;
For Pearls strew not the market-place
In this my town of banishment,
Where with the shifting dust I play
And eat the bread of Discontent.
Yet is there life in that I make,–
Oh, Thou who knowest, turn and see.
As Thou hast power over me,
So have I power over these,
Because I wrought them for Thy sake,
And breathe in them mine agonies.

Small mirth was in the making. Now
I lift the cloth that cloaks the clay,
And, wearied, at Thy feet I lay
My wares ere I go forth to sell.
The long bazar will praise–but Thou–
Heart of my heart, have I done well?