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Nothing ever seemed to put Uncle Jesse out or depress him in any way.

“I’ve kind of contracted a habit of enjoying things,” he remarked once, when Mother had commented on his invariable cheerfulness. “It’s got so chronic that I believe I even enjoy the disagreeable things. It’s great fun thinking they can’t last. ‘Old rheumatiz,’ I says, when it grips me hard, ‘you’ve got to stop aching sometime. The worse you are the sooner you’ll stop, perhaps. I’m bound to get the better of you in the long run, whether in the body or out of the body.'”

Uncle Jesse seldom came to our house without bringing us something, even if it were only a bunch of sweet grass.

“I favour the smell of sweet grass,” he said. “It always makes me think of my mother.”

“She was fond of it?”

“Not that I knows on. Dunno’s she ever saw any sweet grass. No, it’s because it has a kind of motherly perfume–not too young, you understand–something kind of seasoned and wholesome and dependable–just like a mother.”

Uncle Jesse was a very early riser. He seldom missed a sunrise.

“I’ve seen all kinds of sunrises come in through that there Gate,” he said dreamily one morning when I myself had made a heroic effort at early rising and joined him on the rocks halfway between his house and ours. “I’ve been all over the world and, take it all in all, I’ve never seen a finer sight than a summer sunrise out there beyant the Gate. A man can’t pick his time for dying, Mary–jest got to go when the Captain gives his sailing orders. But if I could I’d go out when the morning comes in there at the Gate. I’ve watched it a many times and thought what a thing it would be to pass out through that great white glory to whatever was waiting beyant, on a sea that ain’t mapped out on any airthly chart. I think, Mary, I’d find lost Margaret there.”

He had already told me the story of “lost Margaret,” as he always called her. He rarely spoke of her, but when he did his love for her trembled in every tone–a love that had never grown faint or forgetful. Uncle Jesse was seventy; it was fifty years since lost Margaret had fallen asleep one day in her father’s dory and drifted–as was supposed, for nothing was ever known certainly of her fate–across the harbour and out of the Gate, to perish in the black thunder squall that had come up suddenly that long-ago afternoon. But to Uncle Jesse those fifty years were but as yesterday when it is past.

“I walked the shore for months after that,” he said sadly, “looking to find her dear, sweet little body, but the sea never gave her back to me. But I’ll find her sometime. I wisht I could tell you just how she looked but I can’t. I’ve seen a fine silvery mist hanging over the Gate at sunrise that seemed like her–and then again I’ve seen a white birch in the woods back yander that made me think of her. She had pale brown hair and a little white face, and long slender fingers like yours, Mary, only browner, for she was a shore girl. Sometimes I wake up in the night and hear the sea calling to me in the old way and it seems as if lost Margaret called in it. And when there’s a storm and the waves are sobbing and moaning I hear her lamenting among them. And when they laugh on a gay day it’s her laugh–lost Margaret’s sweet little laugh. The sea took her from me but some day I’ll find her, Mary. It can’t keep us apart forever.”