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‘You don’t understand me… all right. I’ll try and speak more plainly. Just tell me, for instance, openly, Have you had a liking for the Perekatov girl all along, or is it a case of sudden passion?’

‘I should prefer, Avdey Ivanitch, not to discuss with you my relations with Marya Sergievna,’ Kister responded coldly.

‘Oh, indeed! As you please. Only you’ll kindly allow me to believe that you’ve been humbugging me.’

Avdey spoke very deliberately and emphatically.

‘You can’t believe that, Avdey Ivanitch; you know me.’

‘I know you?… who knows you? The heart of another is a dark forest, and the best side of goods is always turned uppermost. I know you read German poetry with great feeling and even with tears in your eyes; I know that you’ve hung various maps on your walls; I know you keep your person clean; that I know,… but beyond that, I know nothing…’

Kister began to lose his temper.

‘Allow me to inquire,’ he asked at last, ‘what is the object of your visit? You have sent no message to me for three weeks, and now you come to me, apparently with the intention of jeering at me. I am not a boy, sir, and I do not allow any one…’

‘Mercy on us,’ Lutchkov interrupted him; ‘mercy on us, Fyodor Fedoritch, who would venture to jeer at you? It’s quite the other way; I’ve come to you with a most humble request, that is, that you’d do me the favour to explain your behaviour to me. Allow me to ask you, wasn’t it you who forced me to make the acquaintance of the Perekatov family? Didn’t you assure your humble servant that it would make his soul blossom into flower? And lastly, didn’t you throw me with the virtuous Marya Sergievna? Why am I not to presume that it’s to you I’m indebted for that final agreeable scene, of which you have doubtless been informed in befitting fashion? An engaged girl, of course, tells her betrothed of everything, especially of her innocent indiscretions. How can I help supposing that it’s thanks to you I’ve been made such a terrific fool of? You took such a mighty interest in my “blossoming out,” you know!’

Kister walked up and down the room.

‘Look here, Lutchkov,’ he said at last; ‘if you really–joking apart–are convinced of what you say, which I confess I don’t believe, then let me tell you, it’s shameful and wicked of you to put such an insulting construction on my conduct and intentions. I don’t want to justify myself… I appeal to your own conscience, to your memory.’

‘Yes; I remember you were continually whispering with Marya Sergievna. Besides that, let me ask you another question: Weren’t you at the Perekatovs’ after a certain conversation with me, after that evening when I like a fool chattered to you, thinking you my greatest friend, of the meeting she’d arranged?’

‘What! you suspect me…’

‘I suspect other people of nothing,’ Avdey cut him short with cutting iciness, ‘of which I would not suspect myself; but I have the weakness to suppose that other men are no better than I am.’

‘You are mistaken,’ Kister retorted emphatically; ‘other men are better than you.’

‘I congratulate them upon it,’ Lutchkov dropped carelessly; ‘but…’

‘But remember,’ broke in Kister, now in his turn thoroughly infuriated, ‘in what terms you spoke of… of that meeting… of… But these explanations are leading to nothing, I see…. Think what you choose of me, and act as you think best.’

‘Come, that’s better,’ observed Avdey. ‘At last you’re beginning to speak plainly.’

‘As you think best,’ repeated Kister.

‘I understand your position, Fyodor Fedoritch,’ Avdey went on with an affectation of sympathy; ‘it’s disagreeable, certainly. A man has been acting, acting a part, and no one has recognised him as a humbug; and all of a sudden…’

‘If I could believe,’ Kister interrupted, setting his teeth, ‘that it was wounded love that makes you talk like this, I should feel sorry for you; I could excuse you…. But in your abuse, in your false charges, I hear nothing but the shriek of mortified pride… and I feel no sympathy for you…. You have deserved what you’ve got.’