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[Footnote 1: Engage in family worship.]

He opened the book at random: ” And God spake all these words saying… THOU SHALT NOT–” The tremendous sentence smote him fairly on the face. He threw his head violently back so that he might not read any further. The book slipped between his knees and fell heavily on the floor.

But the words which had caught his eye, “THOU SHALT NOT–” were printed in fire on the ceiling, or on his brain–he did not know which. He got up quickly, put on his hat, and went out again into the bitter night. He turned down to the left and paced the Thames Embankment. The fog was thicker than ever. Unseen watercraft with horns and steam-roarers grunted like hogs in the river. But in John Arniston’s brain there was a conflict of terrible passion.

After all, it was but folklore, he said to himself. Nothing more than that. Every one knew it. All intelligent people were nowadays of one religion. The thing was manifestly absurd–the Hebrew fetich was dead–dead as Mumbo Jumbo. “Thank God!” he added inconsequently. He walked faster and faster, and on more than one occasion he brushed hurriedly against some of the brutal frequenters of that part of the world on foggy evenings. A rough lout growled belligerently at him, but shrank from the gladsome light of battle which leaped instantly into John Arniston’s eye. To strike some one would have been a comfort to him at that moment.

Well, it was done with. The effete morality of a printed book was no tie upon him. The New Freedom was his–the freedom to do as he would and possess what he desired. Yet after all it was an old religion, this of John’s. It has had many names; but it has never wanted priests to preach and devotees to practise its very agreeable tenets.

John Arniston stamped with his foot as he came to this decision. The fog was clearing off the river. It was no more than a mere scum on the water. There was a rift above, straight up to the stars.

“AND GOD SPAKE ALL THESE WORDS–.”

“No,” he said, over and over, “I shall not give her up. It is preposterous. Yet my father believed it. He died with his hand on the old Bible, his finger in the leaves–my mother–“

“AND GOD SPAKE ALL THESE WORDS–.” The sentence seemed to flash through the rift over the shot-tower–to tingle down from the stars.

There are no true perverts. When man strips him to the bare buff, he is of the complexion his mother bestowed upon him. When his life’s card-castle, laboriously piled, tumbles ignominious, he is again of his mother’s religion.

“AND GOD–.”

John Arniston stepped to the edge of the parapet. He looked over into the slow, swirling black water. It was a quick way that–but no–it was not to be his way. He looked at his watch. It was time to go to the office. He had an article to do. As well do that as anything. But first he would write a letter to her.

Shut in his room, his hand flying swiftly lest it should turn back in spite of him, John Arniston wrote a letter to Miriam Gale–a letter that was all one lie. He could not tell her the true reason why he would not go on the morrow. Who was he, that he should put himself in the attitude of being holier than Miriam Gale? It was certainly not because he did not wish to go–or that he thought it wrong. Simply, his father’s calf-skin Bible barred the way, and he could no more pass over it than he could have trampled over his mother’s body to his desire.

It was done. The letter was written. What was the particular excuse, invented fiercely at the moment, there is no use writing down here to cumber the page. John Arniston cheerfully gave himself over to the recording angel. Yet the ninth commandment is of equal interpretation, though it may be somewhat less clearly and tersely expressed than the seventh.