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Sim Burns’s Wife: A Prairie Heroine
by
As well as she could Lily explained all this to the woman, who lay with her face buried in the girl’s lap. Lily’s arms were about her thin shoulders in an agony of pity.
“It’s hard, Lucretia, I know–more than you can bear–but you mustn’t forget what Sim endures too. He goes out in the storms and in the heat and dust. His boots are hard, and see how his hands are all bruised and broken by his work! He was tired and hungry when he said that–he didn’t really mean it.”
The wife remained silent.
“Mr. Radbourn says work, as things go now, does degrade a man in spite of himself. He says men get coarse and violent in spite of themselves, just as women do when everything goes wrong in the house–when the flies are thick, and the fire won’t burn, and the irons stick to the clothes. You see, you both suffer. Don’t lay up this fit of temper against Sim–will you?”
The wife lifted her head and looked away. Her face was full of hopeless weariness.
“It ain’t this once. It ain’t that ‘t all. It’s having no let-up. Just doin’ the same thing right over ‘n’ over–no hope of anything better.”
“If you had a hope of another world”—-
“Don’t talk that. I don’t want that kind o’ comfert. I want a decent chance here. I want ‘o rest an’ be happy now.” Lily’s big eyes were streaming with tears. What should she say to the desperate woman? “What’s the use? We might jest as well die–all of us.”
The woman’s livid face appalled the girl. She was gaunt, heavy-eyed, nerveless. Her faded dress settled down over her limbs, showing the swollen knees and thin calves; her hands, with distorted joints, protruded painfully from her sleeves. And all about was the ever-recurring wealth and cheer of nature that knows no fear or favor–the bees and flies buzzing in the sun, the jay and kingbird in the poplars, the smell of strawberries, the motion of lush grass, the shimmer of corn-blades tossed gayly as banners in a conquering army.
Like a flash of keener light, a sentence shot across the girl’s mind: “Nature knows no title-deed. The bounty of her mighty hands falls as the sunlight falls, copious, impartial; her seas carry all ships; her air is for all lips, her lands for all feet.”
“Poverty and suffering such as yours will not last.” There was something in the girl’s voice that roused the woman. She turned her dull eyes upon the youthful face.
Lily took her hand in both hers as if by a caress she could impart her own faith.
“Look up, dear. When nature is so good and generous, man must come to be better, surely. Come, go in the house again. Sim is there; he expects you; he told me to tell you he was sorry.” Lucretia’s face twitched a little at that, but her head was bent. “Come; you can’t live this way. There isn’t any other place to go to.”
No; that was the bitterest truth. Where on this wide earth, with its forth-shooting fruits and grains, its fragrant lands and shining seas, could this dwarfed, bent, broken, middle-aged woman go? Nobody wanted her, nobody cared for her. But the wind kissed her drawn lips as readily as those of the girl, and the blooms of clover nodded to her as if to a queen.
Lily had said all she could. Her heart ached with unspeakable pity and a sort of terror.
“Don’t give up, Lucretia. This may be the worst hour of your life. Live and bear with it all for Christ’s sake–for your children’s sake. Sim told me to tell you he was to blame. If you will only see that you are both to blame and yet neither to blame, then you can rise above it. Try, dear!”
Something that was in the girl imparted itself to the wife, electrically. She pulled herself together, rose silently, and started toward the house. Her face was rigid, but no longer sullen. Lily followed her slowly, wonderingly.
As she neared the kitchen door, she saw Sim still sitting at the table; his face was unusually grave and soft. She saw him start and shove back his chair–saw Lucretia go to the stove and lift the tea-pot, and heard her say, as she took her seat beside the baby:
“Want some more tea?”
She had become a wife and mother again, but in what spirit the puzzled girl could not say.