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“What were you afraid of?” a brusque voice interrupted.

“What was I afraid of?”

“At all events, you joined your uncle in killing your father, didn’t you?”

“In such an hour one has not time to think–one just kills a man because one can’t help oneself, or because it seems so easy to kill.”

“True,” the hoarser voice commented in dull and ponderous accents. “When once blood has flowed the fact leads to more blood, and if a man has started out to kill, he cares nothing for any reason–he finds good enough the reason which comes first to his hand.”

“But if this young fellow is speaking the truth, he had a BUSINESS reason–though, properly speaking, even property ought not to provoke quarrels.”

“Similarly one ought not to kill just when one chooses. Folk who commit such crimes should have justice meted out to them.”

“Yes, but it is difficult always to obtain such justice. For instance, this young fellow seems to have spent over a year in prison for nothing.”

“‘For nothing’? Why, did he not entice his father into the hut, and then shut the door upon him, and throw a coat over his head? He has said so himself. ‘For nothing,’ indeed!”

Upon this the rapid stream of sobbed, disconnected words, which I had heard before from some speaker poured forth anew. Somehow, I guessed that it came from the man in the dirty boots, as once more he recounted the story of the murder.

“I do not wish to justify myself,” he said. “I say merely that, inasmuch as I was promised a reprieve at the trial, I told everything, and was therefore allowed to go free, while my uncle and my brother were sentenced to penal servitude.”

“But you KNEW that they had agreed to kill him?”

“Well, it is my idea that at first they intended only to give him a good fright. Never did my father recognise me as his son–always he called me a Jesuit.”

The gruffer of the two voices pulled up the speaker.

“To think,” it said, “that you can actually talk about it all!”

“Why shouldn’t I? My father brought tears to the eyes of many an innocent person.”

“A fig for people’s tears! If our causes of tears were one and all to be murdered, what would the state of things become? Shed tears, but never blood; for blood is not yours to shed. And even if you should believe your own blood to be your own, know that it is not so, that your blood does not belong to you, but to Someone Else.”

“The point in question was my father’s property. It all shows how a man may live awhile, and earn his living, and then suddenly go amiss, and lose his wits, and even conceive a grudge against his own father. . . . Now I must get some sleep.”

Behind the bales all grew quiet. Presently I rose to peer in that direction. The passenger in the buff pea-jacket was sitting huddled up against a coil of rope, with his hands thrust into his sleeves, and his chin resting upon his arms. As the moon was shining straight into his face, I could see that the latter was as livid as that of a corpse, and had its brows drawn down over its narrow, insignificant eyes.

Beside him, and close to my head, there was lying stretched on the top of the coil of rope a broad-shouldered peasant in a short smock and a pair of patched boots of white felt. The ringlets of the wearer’s curly beard were thrust upwards, and his hands clasped behind his head, and with ox-like eyes he stared at the zenith where a few stars were shining, and the moon was beginning to sink.

At length, in a trumpet-like voice (though he seemed to do his best to soften it) the peasant asked:

“Your uncle is on that barge, I suppose?”

“He is. And so is my brother.”

“Yet you are here! How strange!”