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“‘God bless you for these words!’ he said, grasping my hand. ‘I shall think of them often. They will be a comfort to me.’

“As for Julia, God was more merciful to her than man. She rose from her sick-bed thoughtful and humbled, but with hopes that transcended the world of her suffering and shame. She no longer murmured against her sorrowful allotment, but accepted it with quiet and almost cheerful resignation as the fitting penalty of God’s broken laws and the needed discipline of her spirit. She could say with the Psalmist, ‘The judgments of the Lord are true, justified in themselves. Thou art just, O Lord, and thy judgment is right.’ Through my exertions she obtained employment in a respectable family, to whom she endeared herself by her faithfulness, cheerful obedience, and unaffected piety.

“Her trials had made her heart tender with sympathy for all in affliction. She seemed inevitably drawn towards the sick and suffering. In their presence the burden of her own sorrow seemed to fall off. She was the most cheerful and sunny-faced nurse I ever knew; and I always felt sure that my own efforts would be well seconded when I found her by the bedside of a patient. Beautiful it was to see this poor young girl, whom the world still looked upon with scorn and unkindness, cheering the desponding, and imparting, as it were, her own strong, healthful life to the weak and faint; supporting upon her bosom, through weary nights, the heads of those who, in health, would have deemed her touch pollution; or to hear her singing for the ear of the dying some sweet hymn of pious hope or resignation, or calling to mind the consolations of the gospel and the great love of Christ.”

“I trust,” said I, “that the feelings of the community were softened towards her.”

“You know what human nature is,” returned the Doctor, “and with what hearty satisfaction we abhor and censure sin and folly in others. It is a luxury which we cannot easily forego, although our own experience tells us that the consequences of vice and error are evil and bitter enough without the aggravation of ridicule and reproach from without. So you need not be surprised to learn that, in poor Julia’s case, the charity of sinners like herself did not keep pace with the mercy and forgiveness of Him who is infinite in purity. Nevertheless, I will do our people the justice to say that her blameless and self-sacrificing life was not without its proper effect upon them.”

“What became of Robert Barnet?” I inquired.

“He came back after an absence of several months, and called on me before he had even seen his father and mother. He did not mention Julia; but I saw that his errand with me concerned her. I spoke of her excellent deportment and her useful life, dwelt upon the extenuating circumstances of her error and of her sincere and hearty repentance.

“‘Doctor,’ said he, at length, with a hesitating and embarrassed manner, ‘what should you think if I should tell you that, after all that has passed, I have half made up my mind to ask her to become my wife?’

“‘I should think better of it if you had wholly made up your mind,’ said I; ‘and if you were my own son, I wouldn’t ask for you a better wife than Julia Atkins. Don’t hesitate, Robert, on account of what some ill- natured people may say. Consult your own heart first of all.’

“‘I don’t care for the talk of all the busybodies in town,’ said he; ‘but I wish father and mother could feel as you do about her.’

“‘Leave that to me,’ said I. ‘They are kindhearted and reasonable, and I dare say will be disposed to make the best of the matter when they find you are decided in your purpose.’

“I did not see him again; but a few days after I learned from his parents that he had gone on another voyage. It was now autumn, and the most sickly season I had ever known in Peewawkin. Ensign Atkins and his wife both fell sick; and Julia embraced with alacrity this providential opportunity to return to her father’s house and fulfil the duties of a daughter. Under her careful nursing the Ensign soon got upon his feet; but his wife, whose constitution was weaker, sunk under the fever. She died better than she had lived,–penitent and loving, asking forgiveness of Julia for her neglect and unkindness, and invoking blessings on her head. Julia had now, for the first time since the death of her mother, a comfortable home and a father’s love and protection. Her sweetness of temper, patient endurance, and forgetfulness of herself in her labors for others, gradually overcame the scruples and hard feelings of her neighbors. They began to question whether, after all, it was meritorious in them to treat one like her as a sinner beyond forgiveness. Elder Staples and Deacon Warner were her fast friends. The Deacon’s daughters–the tall, blue-eyed, brown-locked girls you noticed in meeting the other day–set the example among the young people of treating her as their equal and companion. The dear good girls! They reminded me of the maidens of Naxos cheering and comforting the unhappy Ariadne.