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“Through an angle of Aunt Harriet’s pelisse, I watched the meeting between my grandmother and Mrs. Moss. They kissed and then drew back and looked at each other, still holding hands. I wondered if my grandmother felt as I felt. I could not tell. With one of her smiles, she bent forward, and, kissing Mrs. Moss again, said:

“‘God bless you, Anastatia.’

“‘God bless you, Elizabeth.’

“It was the first time Mrs. Moss had spoken, and her voice was rather gruff. Then both ladies sat down, and my grandmother drew out her pocket-handkerchief and wiped her eyes. Mrs. Moss began (as I thought) to look for hers, and, not finding it, called,

“‘Metcalfe!’

on which a faded little woman, with a forefinger in a faded-looking book, came out from behind some window-curtains, and, rummaging Mrs. Moss’s chair with a practised hand, produced a large silver snuff-box, from which Mrs. Moss took a pinch, and then offered it to Granny, who shook her head. Mrs. Moss took another and a larger pinch. It was evident what made her voice so gruff.

“Aunt Harriet was introduced as ‘My daughter Harriet,’ and made a stiff curtsey as Mrs. Moss smiled, and nodded, and bade her ‘sit down, my dear.’ Throughout the whole interview she seemed to be looked upon by both ladies as a child, and played the part so well, sitting prim and silent on her chair, that I could hardly help humming as I looked at her:

‘Hold up your head,
Turn out your toes,
Speak when you’re spoken to,
Mend your clothes.’

I was introduced, too, as ‘a grandchild,’ made a curtsey the shadow of Aunt Harriet’s, received a nod, the shadow of that bestowed upon her, and got out of the way as soon as I could, behind my aunt’s chair, where, coming unexpectedly upon three fat pug-dogs on a mat, I sat down among them and felt quite at home.

“The sight of the pugs brought Uncle James to my mind, and when I looked round the room, it seemed to me that he must be a conjuror at least, so true was everything he had said. A large Indian screen hid the door; japanned boxes stood on a little table to correspond in front of it, and there were two cabinets having shallow drawers with decorated handles, and a great deal of glass, through which odd teacups, green dragons, Indian gods, and Dresden shepherdesses were visible upon the shelves. The room was filled with knick-knacks, and here were the pug-dogs, no less than three of them! They were very fat, and had little beauty except as to their round heads and black wrinkled snouts, which I kissed over and over again.

“‘Do you mind Mrs. Moss’s being old, and dressing in that hideous brown dress?’ I asked in a whisper at the ear of one of these round heads. ‘Think of the rosebuds on the brocade, and the pea-green satin, and the high-heeled shoes. Ah!’ I added, ‘you are only a pug, and pugs don’t think.’ Nevertheless, I pulled out the pincushion, and showed it to each dog in turn, and the sight of it so forcibly reminded me of my vain hopes, that I could not help crying. A hot tear fell upon the nose of the oldest and fattest pug, which so offended him that he moved away to another mat at some distance, and as both the others fell fast asleep, I took refuge in my own thoughts.

“The question arose why should not Mrs. Moss have the pincushion after all? I had expected her to be young and beautiful, and she had proved old and ugly, it is true; but there is no reason why old and ugly people should not have cushions to keep their pins in. It was a struggle to part with my dear strawberry pincushion in the circumstances, but I had fairly resolved to do so, when the rustle of leave-taking began, and I had to come out of my corner.