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“I have not earned enough to pay for the oats, even,” he thinks.”That’s why I am so miserable. A man who knows how to do his work, … who has had enough to eat, and whose horse has had enough to eat, is always at ease….”

In one of the corners a young cabman gets up, clears his throat sleepily, and makes for the water-bucket.

“Want a drink?” Iona asks him.

“Seems so.”

“May it do you good…. But my son is dead, mate…. Do you hear? This week in the hospital…. It’s a queer business….”

Iona looks to see the effect produced by his words, but he sees nothing. The young man has covered his head over and is already asleep. The old man sighs and scratches himself…. Just as the young man had been thirsty for water, he thirstsfor speech. His son will soon have been dead a week, and he has not really talked to anybody yet …. He wants to talk of it properly, with deliberation…. He wants to tell how his son was taken ill, how he suffered, what he said before hedied, how he died…. He wants to describe the funeral, and how he went to the hospital to get his son’s clothes. He still has his daughter Anisya in the country…. And he wants to talk about her too…. Yes, he has plenty to talk about now. His listener ought to sigh and exclaim and lament…. It would be even better to talk to women. Though they are silly creatures, they blubber at the first word.

“Let’s go out and have a look at the mare,” Iona thinks.”There is always time for sleep…. You’ll have sleep enough, no fear….”

He puts on his coat and goes into the stables where his mare is standing. He thinks about oats, about hay, about the weather…. He cannot think about his son when he is alone…. To talk about him with someone is possible, but to think of him and picture him is insufferable anguish….

“Are you munching?” Iona asks his mare, seeing her shining eyes.”There, munch away, munch away…. Since we have not earned enough for oats, we will eat hay…. Yes, … I have grown too old to drive…. My son ought to be driving,not I…. He was a real cabman…. He ought to have lived….”

Iona is silent for a while, and then he goes on:

“That’s how it is, old girl…. Kuzma Ionitch is gone…. He said good-by to me…. He went and died for no reason…. Now, suppose you had a little colt, and you were own mother to that little colt…. And all at once that same little colt went and died…. You’d be sorry, wouldn’t you? …”

The little mare munches, listens, and breathes on her master’s hands. Iona is carried away and tells her all about it.