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Misery
by
“Well, drive on,” says the hunchback in his cracked voice, settling himself and breathing down Iona’s neck.”Cut along! What a cap you’ve got, my friend! You wouldn’t find a worse one in all Petersburg….”
“He-he! … he-he! …” laughs Iona.”It’s nothing to boast of!”
“Well, then, nothing to boast of, drive on! Are you going to drive like this all the way? Eh? Shall I give you one in the neck?”
“My head aches,” says one of the tall ones.”At the Dukmasovs’ yesterday Vaska and I drank four bottles of brandy between us.”
“I can’t make out why you talk such stuff,” says the other tall one angrily.”You lie like a brute.”
“Strike me dead, it’s the truth! …”
“It’s about as true as that a louse coughs.”
“He-he!” grins Iona.”Me-er-ry gentlemen!”
“Tfoo! the devil take you!” cries the hunchback indignantly.”Will you get on, you old plague, or won’t you? Is that the way to drive? Give her one with the whip. Hang it all, give it her well.”
Iona feels behind his back the jolting person and quivering voice of the hunchback. He hears abuse addressed to him, he sees people, and the feeling of loneliness begins little by little to be less heavy on his heart. The hunchback swears at him,till he chokes over some elaborately whimsical string of epithets and is overpowered by his cough. His tall companions begin talking of a certain Nadyezhda Petrovna. Iona looks round at them. Waiting till there is a brief pause, he looks round oncemore and says:
“This week … er… my… er… son died!”
“We shall all die, …” says the hunchback with a sigh, wiping his lips after coughing.”Come, drive on! drive on! My friends, I simply cannot stand crawling like this! When will he get us there?”
“Well, you give him a little encouragement … one in the neck!”
“Do you hear, you old plague? I’ll make you smart. If one stands on ceremony with fellows like you one may as well walk. Do you hear, you old dragon? Or don’t you care a hang what we say? “
And Iona hears rather than feels a slap on the back of his neck.
“He-he! …” he laughs.”Merry gentlemen …. God give you health!”
“Cabman, are you married?” asks one of the tall ones.
“I? He he! Me-er-ry gentlemen. The only wife for me now is the damp earth…. He-ho-ho!…. The grave that is! … Here my son’s dead and I am alive…. It’s a strange thing, death has come in at the wrong door…. Instead of comingfor me it went for my son….”
And Iona turns round to tell them how his son died, but at that point the hunchback gives a faint sigh and announces that, thank God! they have arrived at last. After taking his twenty kopecks, Iona gazes for a long while after the revelers, whodisappear into a dark entry. Again he is alone and again there is silence for him…. The misery which has been for a brief space eased comes back again and tears his heart more cruelly than ever. With a look of anxiety and suffering Iona’s eyesstray restlessly among the crowds moving to and fro on both sides of the street: can he not find among those thousands someone who will listen to him? But the crowds flit by heedless of himand his misery…. His misery is immense, beyond all bounds. If Iona’s heart were to burst and his misery to flow out, it would flood the whole world, it seems, but yet it is not seen. It has found a hiding-place in such an insignificant shellthat one would not have found it with a candle by daylight….
Iona sees a house-porter w
ith a parcel and makes up his mind to address him.
“What time will it be, friend?” he asks.
“Going on for ten…. Why have you stopped here? Drive on!”
Iona drives a few paces away, bends himself double, and gives himself up to his misery. He feels it is no good to appeal to people. But before five minutes have passed he draws himself up, shakes his head as though he feels a sharp pain, and tugsat the reins…. He can bear it no longer.
“Back to the yard!” he thinks.”To the yard!”
And his little mare, as though she knew his thoughts, falls to trotting. An hour and a half later Iona is sitting by a big dirty stove. On the stove, on the floor, and on the benches are people snoring. The air isfull of smells and stuffiness. Iona looks at the sleeping figures, scratches himself, and regrets that he has come home so early….