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“I am not of much account, child,–not of much account,” he said wearily.

Marg’et Ann colored with pain. She felt as a branch might feel when the trunk of the tree snaps.

“I’m sure you’re getting on very well, father; the doctor says you’ll be able to begin preaching again by fall.”

The minister made his way slowly across the room and stood a moment in the open door; then he retraced his halting steps with their thumping wooden accompaniment and seated himself slowly and painfully again. One of the crutches slid along the arm of the chair and fell to the floor. Marg’et Ann went to pick it up. His head was still bowed and his face had not relaxed from the pain of moving. Standing a moment at his side and looking down at him, she noticed how thin and gray his hair had become. She turned away her face, looking out of the window and battling with the cruelty of it all. The minister felt the tenderness of her silent presence there, and glanced up.

“I shall not preach any more, Marg’et Ann, at least not here, not in this way. If I might do something for those down-trodden people,–but that is perhaps not best. The Lord knows. But I shall leave the ministry for a time,–until I see my way more clearly.”

His daughter crossed the room, stooping to straighten the braided rug at his feet as she went, and took up her work again. Certainly the crimson ball was a trifle one-sided, or was it the unevenness of her tear-filled vision? She unwound it a little to remedy the defect as her father went on.

“Things do not present themselves to my mind as they once did. I have not decided just what course to pursue, but it would certainly not be honorable for me to occupy the pulpit in my present frame of mind. You’ve been a very faithful daughter, Marg’et Ann,” he broke off, “a good daughter.”

He turned and looked at her sitting there winding the great ball with her trembling fingers; her failure to speak did not suggest any coldness to either of them; response would have startled him.

“I have thought much about it,” he went on. “I have had time to think under this affliction. Nancy Helen is old enough to be trusted now, and when Laban marries he will perhaps be willing to rent the land. No doubt you could get both the summer and winter schools in the district; that would be a great help. The congregation has not been able to pay much, but it would be a loss”–

He faltered for the first time; there was a shame in mentioning money in connection with his office.

“I have suffered a good deal of distress of mind, child, but doubtless it is salutary–it is salutary.”

He reached for his crutches again restlessly, and then drew back, remembering the pain of rising.

Marg’et Ann had finished the ball of carpet rags and laid it carefully in the box with the others. She had taken great pains with the coloring, thinking of the best room in her new home, and Lloyd had a man’s liking for red.

And now the old question had come back; it was older than she knew. Doubtless it was right that men should always have opinions and aspirations and principles, and women only ties and duties and heartaches. It seemed cruel, though, just now. She choked back the throbbing pain in her throat that threatened to make itself seen and heard.

“Of course I must do right, Marg’et Ann.”

Her father’s voice seemed almost pleading.

Of course he must do right. Marg’et Ann had not dreamed of anything else. Only it was a little hard just now.

She glanced at him, leaning forward in his chair with the crutches beside him. He looked feeble about the temples, and his patched dressing-gown hung loose in wrinkles. She crossed the room and stood beside him. Of course she would stay with him. She did not ask herself why. She did not reason that it was because motherhood underlies wifehood and makes it sweet and sufficing; makes every good woman a mother to every dependent creature, be it strong or weak. I doubt if she reasoned at all. She only said,–