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Some people don’t seem to be so dead, when they are dead, as others are. Jim Benton was like that. He had been on my watch, and I couldn’t get used to the idea that he wasn’t about decks with me. I was always expecting to see him, and his brother was so exactly like him that I often felt as if I did see him and forgot he was dead, and made the mistake of calling Jack by his name; though I tried not to, because I knew it must hurt. If ever Jack had been the cheerful one of the two, as I had always supposed he had been, he had changed very much, for he grew to be more silent than Jim had ever been.

One fine afternoon I was sitting on the main-hatch, overhauling the clock-work of the taffrail-log, which hadn’t been registering very well of late, and I had got the cook to bring me a coffee-cup to hold the small screws as I took them out, and a saucer for the sperm-oil I was going to use. I noticed that he didn’t go away, but hung round without exactly watching what I was doing, as if he wanted to say something to me. I thought if it were worth much he would say it anyhow, so I didn’t ask him questions; and sure enough he began of his own accord before long. There was nobody on deck but the man at the wheel, and the other man away forward.

“Mr. Torkeldsen,” the cook began, and then stopped.

I supposed he was going to ask me to let the watch break out a barrel of flour, or some salt horse.

“Well, doctor?” I asked, as he didn’t go on.

“Well, Mr. Torkeldsen,” he answered, “I somehow want to ask you whether you think I am giving satisfaction on this ship, or not?”

“So far as I know, you are, doctor. I haven’t heard any complaints from the forecastle, and the captain has said nothing, and I think you know your business, and the cabin-boy is bursting out of his clothes. That looks as if you are giving satisfaction. What makes you think you are not?”

I am not good at giving you that West Indies talk, and sha’n’t try; but the doctor beat about the bush awhile, and then he told me he thought the men were beginning to play tricks on him, and he didn’t like it, and thought he hadn’t deserved it, and would like his discharge at our next port. I told him he was a d—-d fool, of course, to begin with; and that men were more apt to try a joke with a chap they liked than with anybody they wanted to get rid of; unless it was a bad joke, like flooding his bunk, or filling his boots with tar. But it wasn’t that kind of practical joke. The doctor said that the men were trying to frighten him, and he didn’t like it, and that they put things in his way that frightened him. So I told him he was a d—-d fool to be frightened, anyway, and I wanted to know what things they put in his way. He gave me a queer answer. He said they were spoons and forks, and odd plates, and a cup now and then, and such things.

I set down the taffrail-log on the bit of canvas I had put under it, and looked at the doctor. He was uneasy, and his eyes had a sort of hunted look, and his yellow face looked grey. He wasn’t trying to make trouble. He was in trouble. So I asked him questions.

He said he could count as well as anybody, and do sums without using his fingers, but that when he couldn’t count any other way he did use his fingers, and it always came out the same. He said that when he and the cabin-boy cleared up after the men’s meals there were more things to wash than he had given out. There’d be a fork more, or there’d be a spoon more, and sometimes there’d be a spoon and a fork, and there was always a plate more. It wasn’t that he complained of that. Before poor Jim Benton was lost they had a man more to feed, and his gear to wash up after meals, and that was in the contract, the doctor said. It would have been if there were twenty in the ship’s company; but he didn’t think it was right for the men to play tricks like that. He kept his things in good order, and he counted them, and he was responsible for them, and it wasn’t right that the men should take more things than they needed when his back was turned, and just soil them and mix them up with their own, so as to make him think–