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This reticence also extended to Marvin’s affairs. The relations between them, I saw, were greatly strained, although Jim always discharged his duties conscientiously, never failing to render a strict account of the time he spent with me, which Marvin always itemized in the weekly bill. I used often to wonder if he were not under some obligation to his employer which he could not requite; it might be for food and shelter in his earlier days, or perhaps that he was weighted by a money debt he was unable to pay.

One morning, after a particularly ugly outbreak in which Jim had been denounced for some supposed neglect of his duties, I asked him, then lying beside me, his head cupped upon his saucer of a slouch hat, why he stayed on with a man like Marvin, so different from himself in every way. I had often wondered why Jim stood it, and wished that he had the spirit to try his fortunes elsewhere. In my sympathy for him I had even gone so far as to hint once or twice at my finding him other employment. Indeed, I must confess that the only cloud between us dimming my confidence in him was this very lack of independence.

“Well, I got to git along with him for a spell yit,” Jim answered, slowly, his eyes turned up to the sky. “He is ornery, and no mistake, and I git mad at him sometimes; but then ag’in I feel kinder sorry for him somehow. He’s a queer kind, ain’t he, to be livin’ up here all his life with trees and mountains all ’round him, all doin’ their best to please him–and I don’t know nothin’ friendlier nor honester–and yet him bein’ what he is? I’d ‘a’ thought they’d thawed him out ‘fore this. And he’s so dog-goned close, too, if I must say it. Why, if it warn’t for Mother Marvin, some o’ us ‘raound here”–and he stopped and lowered his voice–“would be out in the cold; some ye wouldn’t suspect, too.”

This apparently studied reticence only incited my curiosity to learn something more of the man for whom I had begun to have a real affection. I wanted particularly to know something of his life before he came to Marvin’s!–twelve years now. I could not, of course, ask Marvin or his wife for any details–my intimacy with Jim forbade such an invasion of his privacy–and I met no one else in the forest. I saw plainly that he was not a mountaineer by birth. Not only did his dialect differ from those about him, but his habits were not those of a woodsman. For instance, he would always carry his matches loose in his pocket, instead of in a dry box; then, again, he would wear his trousers rolled up like a fireman’s, as if to keep out the wet, instead of tucking them into his boots to tramp the woods the better. Now and then, too, he would let fall some word or expression which would betray greater familiarity with the ins and outs of the city than with the intricacies of the forest.

“It was fixed up in a glass case like one Abe Condit used to have in his place in the Bowery,” he said once in describing a prize trout some city fisherman had stuffed and framed. But when I asked him, with some surprise, if he knew the Bowery, he looked at me quickly, with the slightest trace of offended dignity in his eyes, as if I had meant to overstep the line between us, and answered quickly:

“I knowed Abe Condit,” and immediately changed the conversation.

And yet I must admit that there was nothing in the way he answered this and all my other questions that weakened my confidence in his sincerity. If there were any blackened pages in his past record that he did not want to lay bare even to me, they were discolored, I felt sure, more by privations and suffering than by any stains he was ashamed of.