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Li Wan, The Fair
by
“Ay,” Canim whispered hoarsely. “You feel–?”
“No! no!” she cried in haste. “I feel nothing. Did I say ‘feel’? I did not mean it. It could not be that I should mean it. I see, and I see only, and that is all I see–a man in the snow, with eyes like the sky, and hair like the weasel. I have seen it many times, and always it is the same–a man in the snow–“
“And do you see yourself?” he asked, leaning forward and regarding her intently. “Do you ever see yourself and the man in the snow?”
“Why should I see myself? Am I not real?”
His muscles relaxed and he sank back, an exultant satisfaction in his eyes which he turned from her so that she might not see.
“I will tell you, Li Wan,” he spoke decisively; “you were a little bird in some life before, a little moose-bird, when you saw this thing, and the memory of it is with you yet. It is not strange. I was once a moose, and my father’s father afterward became a bear–so said the shaman, and the shaman cannot lie. Thus, on the Trail of the Gods we pass from life to life, and the gods know only and understand. Dreams and the shadows of dreams be memories, nothing more, and the dog, whining asleep in the sun-warmth, doubtless sees and remembers things gone before. Bash, there, was a warrior once. I do firmly believe he was once a warrior.”
Canim tossed a bone to the brute and got upon his feet. “Come, let us begone. The sun is yet hot, but it will get no cooler.”
“And these white people, what are they like?” Li Wan made bold to ask.
“Like you and me,” he answered, “only they are less dark of skin. You will be among them ere the day is dead.”
Canim lashed the sleeping-robe to his one-hundred-and-fifty-pound pack, smeared his face with wet clay, and sat down to rest till Li Wan had finished loading the dogs. Olo cringed at sight of the club in her hand, and gave no trouble when the bundle of forty pounds and odd was strapped upon him. But Bash was aggrieved and truculent, and could not forbear to whimper and snarl as he was forced to receive the burden. He bristled his back and bared his teeth as she drew the straps tight, the while throwing all the malignancy of his nature into the glances shot at her sideways and backward. And Canim chuckled and said, “Did I not say he was once a very great warrior?”
“These furs will bring a price,” he remarked as he adjusted his head-strap and lifted his pack clear of the ground. “A big price. The white men pay well for such goods, for they have no time to hunt and are soft to the cold. Soon shall we feast, Li Wan, as you have feasted never in all the lives you have lived before.”
She grunted acknowledgment and gratitude for her lord’s condescension, slipped into the harness, and bent forward to the load.
“The next time I am born, I would be born a white man,” he added, and swung off down the trail which dived into the gorge at his feet.
The dogs followed close at his heels, and Li Wan brought up the rear. But her thoughts were far away, across the Ice Mountains to the east, to the little corner of the earth where her childhood had been lived. Ever as a child, she remembered, she had been looked upon as strange, as one with an affliction. Truly she had dreamed awake and been scolded and beaten for the remarkable visions she saw, till, after a time, she had outgrown them. But not utterly. Though they troubled her no more waking, they came to her in her sleep, grown woman that she was, and many a night of nightmare was hers, filled with fluttering shapes, vague and meaningless. The talk with Canim had excited her, and down all the twisted slant of the divide she harked back to the mocking fantasies of her dreams.