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“And why is it your feet point not straight before you?”

“I do not know, save that they are unlike the feet of other women.”

A satisfied light crept into his eyes, but otherwise he gave no sign.

“Like other women, your hair is black; but have you ever noticed that it is soft and fine, softer and finer than the hair of other women?”

“I have noticed,” she answered shortly, for she was not pleased at such cold analysis of her sex-deficiencies.

“It is a year, now, since I took you from your people,” he went on, “and you are nigh as shy and afraid of me as when first I looked upon you. How does this thing be?”

Li Wan shook her head. “I am afraid of you, Canim, you are so big and strange. And further, before you looked upon me even, I was afraid of all the young men. I do not know … I cannot say … only it seemed, somehow, as though I should not be for them, as though …”

“Ay,” he encouraged, impatient at her faltering.

“As though they were not my kind.”

“Not your kind?” he demanded slowly. “Then what is your kind?”

“I do not know, I …” She shook her head in a bewildered manner. “I cannot put into words the way I felt. It was strangeness in me. I was unlike other maidens, who sought the young men slyly. I could not care for the young men that way. It would have been a great wrong, it seemed, and an ill deed.”

“What is the first thing you remember?” Canim asked with abrupt irrelevance.

“Pow-Wah-Kaan, my mother.”

“And naught else before Pow-Wah-Kaan?”

“Naught else.”

But Canim, holding her eyes with his, searched her secret soul and saw it waver.

“Think, and think hard, Li Wan!” he threatened.

She stammered, and her eyes were piteous and pleading, but his will dominated her and wrung from her lips the reluctant speech.

“But it was only dreams, Canim, ill dreams of childhood, shadows of things not real, visions such as the dogs, sleeping in the sun-warmth, behold and whine out against.”

“Tell me,” he commanded, “of the things before Pow-Wah-Kaan, your mother.”

“They are forgotten memories,” she protested. “As a child I dreamed awake, with my eyes open to the day, and when I spoke of the strange things I saw I was laughed at, and the other children were afraid and drew away from me. And when I spoke of the things I saw to Pow-Wah-Kaan, she chided me and said they were evil; also she beat me. It was a sickness, I believe, like the falling-sickness that comes to old men; and in time I grew better and dreamed no more. And now … I cannot remember”–she brought her hand in a confused manner to her forehead–“they are there, somewhere, but I cannot find them, only …”

“Only,” Canim repeated, holding her.

“Only one thing. But you will laugh at its foolishness, it is so unreal.”

“Nay, Li Wan. Dreams are dreams. They may be memories of other lives we have lived. I was once a moose. I firmly believe I was once a moose, what of the things I have seen in dreams, and heard.”

Strive as he would to hide it, a growing anxiety was manifest, but Li Wan, groping after the words with which to paint the picture, took no heed.

“I see a snow-tramped space among the trees,” she began, “and across the snow the sign of a man where he has dragged himself heavily on hand and knee. And I see, too, the man in the snow, and it seems I am very close to him when I look. He is unlike real men, for he has hair on his face, much hair, and the hair of his face and head is yellow like the summer coat of the weasel. His eyes are closed, but they open and search about. They are blue like the sky, and look into mine and search no more. And his hand moves, slow, as from weakness, and I feel …”