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“I thought you were asleep?”

Her hands fell and he caught them. His sad impassioned face bowed itself upon her palms.

“I am awake, Bertha,” he groaned. “I am awake–at last.”

She regarded him with a piteous, pitying glance. She knew him with a keener, sadder knowledge than he would ever comprehend; but she did not under-estimate the depth of his misery at this one overwhelming moment. He was awake indeed and saw what he had lost.

“If you could but have borne with me a little longer,” he said. “If I had only not been so shallow and so blind. If you could but have borne with me a little longer!”

“If I could but have borne with myself a little longer,” she answered. “If I could but have borne a little longer with my poor, base pride! Because I suffered myself, I have made another suffer too.”

He knew she spoke of M. Villefort, and the thought jarred upon him.

“He does not suffer,” he said. “He is not of the fibre to feel pain.”

And he wondered why she shrank from him a little and answered with a sad bitterness:–

“Are you sure? You did not know that!”–

“Forgive me,” he said brokenly, the face he lifted, haggard with his unhappiness. “Forgive me, for I have lost so much.”

She wasted few words and no tears. The force and suddenness of his emotion and her own had overborne her into this strange unmeant confession; but her mood was unlike his,–it was merely receptive. She listened to his unavailing regrets, but told him little of her own past.

“It does not matter,” she said drearily. “It is all over. Let it rest. The pain of to-day and tomorrow is enough for us. We have borne yesterday; why should we want it back again?”

And when they parted she said only one thing of the future:–

“There is no need that we should talk. There is nothing for us beyond this point. We can only go back. We must try to forget–and be satisfied with our absinthe.”

Instead of returning to his hotel, Edmondstone found his way to the Champs Elysees, and finally to the Bois. He was too wretched to have any purpose in his wanderings. He walked rapidly, looking straight before him and seeing nobody. He scarcely understood his own fierce emotions Hitherto his fancies had brought him a vague rapture; now he experienced absolute anguish, Every past experience had become trivial. What happiness is so keen as one’s briefest pain? As he walked he lived again the days he had thrown away. He remembered a thousand old, yet new, phases of Bertha’s girlhood. He thought of times when she had touched or irritated or pleased him. When he had left Paris for Rome she had not bidden him good-by. Jenny, her younger sister, had told him that she was not well.

“If I had seen her then,” he cried inwardly, “I might have read her heart–and my own.”

M. Renard, riding a very tall horse in the Bois, passed him and raised his eyebrows at the sight of his pallor and his fagged yet excited look.

“There will be a new sonnet,” he said to himself. “A sonnet to Despair, or Melancholy, or Loss.”

Afterward, when society became a little restive and eager, M. Renard looked on with sardonic interest.

“That happy man, M. Villefort,” he said to Madame de Castro, “is a good soul–a good soul. He has no small jealous follies,” and his smile was scarcely a pleasant thing to see.

“There is nothing for us beyond this past,” Bertha had said, and Edmondstone had agreed with her hopelessly.

But he could not quite break away. Sometimes for a week the Villeforts missed him, and then again they saw him every day. He spent his mornings with them, joined them in their drives, at their opera-box, or at the entertainments of their friends. He also fell into his old place in the Trent household, and listened with a vague effort at interest to Mrs. Trent’s maternal gossip about the boys’ college expenses, Bertha’s household, and Jenny’s approaching social debut He was continually full of a feverish longing to hear of Bertha,–to hear her name spoken, her ingoings and out-comings discussed, her looks, her belongings.