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“You are unfair,” she cried. “Oh, you are cruel, you juggle words, make knives of them. . . . You” and she spoke as with difficulty–“you have no right to know just how I loved my boy! You should be either man or woman!”

He said pensively: “Yes, I am cruel. But you had mirth and beauty once, and I had only love and a vocabulary. Who then more flagrantly abused the gifts God gave? And why should I not be cruel to you, who made a master-poet of me for your recreation? Lord, what a deal of ruined life it takes to make a little art! Yes, yes, I know. Under old oaks lovers will mouth my verses, and the acorns are not yet shaped from which those oaks will spring. My adoration and your perfidy, all that I have suffered, all that I have failed in even, has gone toward the building of an enduring monument. All these will be immortal, because youth is immortal, and youth delights in demanding explanations of infinity. And only to this end I have suffered and have catalogued the ravings of a perverse disease which has robbed my life of all the normal privileges of life as flame shrivels hair from the arm–that young fools such as I was once might be pleased to murder my rhetoric, and scribblers parody me in their fictions, and schoolboys guess at the date of my death!” This he said with more than ordinary animation; and then he shook his head. “There is a leaven,” he said–“there is a leaven even in your smuggest and most inconsiderable tradesman.”

She answered, with a wistful smile: “I, too, regret my poet. And just now you are more like him—-“

“Faith, but he was really a poet–or, at least, at times—-?”

“Not marble, nor the gilded monuments of princes shall outlive this powerful rhyme—-‘”

“Dear, dear!” he said, in petulant vexation; “how horribly emotion botches verse. That clash of sibilants is both harsh and ungrammatical. Shall should be changed to will.” And at that the woman sighed, because, in common with all persons who never essayed creative verbal composition, she was quite certain perdurable writing must spring from a surcharged heart, rather than from a rearrangement of phrases. And so,

“Very unfeignedly I regret my poet,” she said, “my poet, who was unhappy and unreasonable, because I was not always wise or kind, or even just. And I did not know until to-day how much I loved my poet. . . . Yes, I know now I loved him. I must go now. I would I had not come.”

Then, standing face to face, he cried, “Eh, madam, and what if I also have lied to you–in part? Our work is done; what more is there to say?”

“Nothing,” she answered–“nothing. Not even for you, who are a master-smith of words to-day and nothing more.”

“I?” he replied. “Do you so little emulate a higher example that even for a moment you consider me?”

She did not answer.

When she had gone, the playmaker sat for a long while in meditation; and then smilingly he took up his pen. He was bound for “an uninhabited island” where all disasters ended in a happy climax.

“So, so!” he was declaiming, later on: “We, too, are kin To dreams and visions; and our little life Is gilded by such faint and cloud-wrapped suns–Only, that needs a homelier touch. Rather, let us say, We are such stuff As dreams are made on–Oh, good, good!–Now to pad out the line. . . . In any event, the Bermudas are a seasonable topic. Now here, instead of thickly-templed India, suppose we write the still-vexed Bermoothes–Good, good! It fits in well enough. . . .”

And so in clerkly fashion he sat about the accomplishment of his stint of labor in time for dinner. A competent workman is not disastrously upset by interruption; and, indeed, he found the notion of surprising Judith with an unlooked-for trinket or so to be at first a very efficacious spur to composition.

And presently the strong joy of creating kindled in him, and phrase flowed abreast with thought, and the playmaker wrote fluently and surely to an accompaniment of contented ejaculations. He regretted nothing, he would not now have laid aside his pen to take up a scepter. For surely–he would have said–to live untroubled, and weave beautiful and winsome dreams is the most desirable of human fates. But he did not consciously think of this, because he was midcourse in the evoking of a mimic tempest which, having purged its victims of unkindliness and error, aimed (in the end) only to sink into an amiable calm.