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Jane Lavinia tried to speak and couldn’t. For a wonder, Aunt Rebecca spared her the trouble.

“Well, what did Mr. Stephens think of your pictures?” she asked shortly.

“Oh!” Everything that Jane Lavinia wanted to say came rushing at once and together to her tongue’s end. “Oh, Aunt Rebecca, he was delighted with them! And he said I had remarkable talent, and he wants me to go to New York and study in an art school there. He says Mrs. Stephens finds it hard to get good help, and if I’d be willing to work for her in the mornings, I could live with them and have my afternoons off. So it won’t cost much. And he said he would help me–and, oh, Aunt Rebecca, can’t I go?”

Jane Lavinia’s breath gave out with a gasp of suspense.

Aunt Rebecca was silent for so long a space that Jane Lavinia had time to pass through the phases of hope and fear and despair and resignation before she said, more grimly than ever, “If your mind is set on going, go you will, I suppose. It doesn’t seem to me that I have anything to say in the matter, Jane Lavinia.”

“But, oh, Aunt Rebecca,” said Jane Lavinia tremulously. “I can’t go unless you’ll help me. I’ll have to pay for my lessons at the art school, you know.”

“So that’s it, is it? And do you expect me to give you the money to pay for them, Jane Lavinia?”

“Not give–exactly,” stammered Jane Lavinia. “I’ll pay it back some time, Aunt Rebecca. Oh, indeed, I will–when I’m able to earn money by my pictures!”

“The security is hardly satisfactory,” said Aunt Rebecca immovably. “You know well enough I haven’t much money, Jane Lavinia. I thought when I was coaxed into giving you two quarters’ lessons with Miss Claxton that it was as much as you could expect me to do for you. I didn’t suppose the next thing would be that you’d be for betaking yourself to New York and expecting me to pay your bills there.”

Aunt Rebecca turned and went into the house. Jane Lavinia, feeling sore and bruised in spirit; fled to her own room and cried herself to sleep.

Her eyes were swollen the next morning, but she was not sulky. Jane Lavinia never sulked. She did her morning’s work faithfully, although there was no spring in her step. That afternoon, when she was out in the orchard trying to patch up her tattered dreams, Aunt Rebecca came down the blossomy avenue, a tall, gaunt figure, with an uncompromising face.

“You’d better go down to the store and get ten yards of white cotton, Jane Lavinia,” she said. “If you’re going to New York, you’ll have to get a supply of underclothing made.”

Jane Lavinia opened her eyes.

“Oh, Aunt Rebecca, am I going?”

“You can go if you want to. I’ll give you all the money I can spare. It ain’t much, but perhaps it’ll be enough for a start.”

“Oh, Aunt Rebecca, thank you!” exclaimed Jane Lavinia, crimson with conflicting feelings. “But perhaps I oughtn’t to take it–perhaps I oughtn’t to leave you alone–“

If Aunt Rebecca had shown any regret at the thought of Jane Lavinia’s departure, Jane Lavinia would have foregone New York on the spot. But Aunt Rebecca only said coldly, “I guess you needn’t worry over that. I can get along well enough.”

And with that it was settled. Jane Lavinia lived in a whirl of delight for the next week. She felt few regrets at leaving Chestercote. Aunt Rebecca would not miss her; Jane Lavinia thought that Aunt Rebecca regarded her as a nuisance–a foolish girl who wasted her time making pictures instead of doing something useful. Jane Lavinia had never thought that Aunt Rebecca had any affection for her. She had been a very little girl when her parents had died, and Aunt Rebecca had taken her to bring up. Accordingly she had been “brought up,” and she was grateful to Aunt Rebecca, but there was no closer bond between them. Jane Lavinia would have given love for love unstintedly, but she never supposed that Aunt Rebecca loved her.