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In Spite Of Myself
by
After tea Miss Ashley proposed a walk around the premises, in order to initiate me into my duties. Apart from his farm, Mr. Ashley owned large grist-and saw-mills and did a flourishing business, with the details of which Miss Gussie seemed so conversant that I lost all doubt of her ability to run the whole thing as she had claimed. I felt quite ignorant in the light of her superior knowledge, and our walk was enlivened by some rather too lively discussions between us. We walked about together, however, till the shadows of the firs by the mills stretched nearly across the pond and the white moon began to put on a silvery burnish. Then we wound up by a bitter dispute, during which Gussie’s eyes were very black and each cheek had a round, red stain on it. She had a little air of triumph at having defeated me.
“I have to go now and see about putting away the milk, and I dare say you’re not sorry to be rid of me,” she said, with a demureness I had not credited her with, “but if you come to the verandah in half an hour I’ll bring you out a glass of new milk and some pound cake I made today by a recipe that’s been in the family for one hundred years, and I hope it will choke you for all the snubs you’ve been giving me.” She walked away after this amiable wish, and I stood by the pond till the salmon tints faded from its waters and stars began to mirror themselves brokenly in its ripples. The mellow air was full of sweet, mingled eventide sounds as I walked back to the house. Aunt Lucy was knitting on the verandah. Gussie brought out cake and milk and chatted to us while we ate, in an inconsequent girlish way, or fed bits of cake to a green-eyed goblin in the likeness of a black cat.
She appeared in such an amiable light that I was half inclined to reconsider my opinion of her. When I went to my room the vase full of crimson leaves on my table suggested Gussie, and I repented of my unfriendliness for a moment–and only for a moment. Gussie and her mother passed through the hall below, and Aunt Lucy’s soft voice floated up through my half-open door.
“Well, how do you like your cousin, my dear?”
Whereat that decided young lady promptly answered, “I think he is the most conceited youth I’ve met for some time.”
Pleasant, wasn’t it? I thought of Nellie’s meek admiration of all my words and ways, and got her photo out to soothe my vanity. For the first time it struck me that her features were somewhat insipid. The thought seemed like disloyalty, so I banished it and went to bed.
I expected to dream of that disagreeable Gussie, but I did not, and I slept so soundly that it was ten o’clock the next morning before I woke. I sprang out of bed in dismay, dressed hastily, and ran down, not a little provoked at myself. Through the window I saw Gussie in the garden digging up some geraniums. She was enveloped in a clay-stained brown apron, a big flapping straw hat half hid her face, and she wore a pair of muddy old kid gloves. Her whole appearance was disreputable, and the face she turned to me as I said “Good morning” had a diagonal streak of clay across it. I added slovenliness to my already long list of her demerits.
“Good afternoon, rather. Don’t you know what time it is? The men were here three hours ago for their orders. I thought it a pity to disturb your peaceful dreams, so I gave them myself and sent them off.”
I was angrier than ever. A nice beginning I had made. And was that girl laughing at me?
“I expected to be called in time, certainly,” I said stiffly. “I am not accustomed to oversleep myself. I promise it will not occur again.”