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“But long before light the girl would go out herself as a puma and scare the game away. Thus it happened every time that the young man would return at evening empty-handed, or he would be so mortified that he did not return at all, and the girl’s parents would send the bundle back to him. The Chief Priest and his wife began to be uneasy lest their daughter should never marry at all.

“Finally Ho-tai of the pueblo of Matsaki heard of her, and said to his mother, ‘That is the wife for me.’

“‘Shoom!’ said his mother; ‘what have you to offer her?’ for they were very poor.

“‘Shoom yourself!’ said Ho-tai. ‘He that is poor in spirit as well as in appearance, is poor indeed. It is plain she is not looking for a bundle, but for a man.’ So he took what presents he had to the house of the Chief Priest of the Bow, and everything went as usual; except that when Ho-tai asked them to help him in, the Chief Priest said, ‘Be yourself within,’ for he was growing tired of courtings that came to nothing. But when Ho-tai came cheerfully down the ladder with his gift, the girl’s heart was touched, for he was a fine gold color like a full moon, and his high heart gave him a proud way of walking. So when she had said, ‘Only possibly you love me, but that I may know what manner of husband I am getting, I pray you hunt for me one day,’ and when they had bidden each other ‘wait happily until the morning,’ she went out as a puma and searched the hills for game that she might drive toward the young man, instead of away from him. But because she could not take her eyes off of him, she was not so careful as she should be not to let him see her. Then she went home and put on all her best clothes, the white buckskins, the turquoises and silver bracelets, and waited. At evening, Ho-tai, the Two-Hearted, came with a fine buck on his shoulders, and a stiff face. Without a word he gave the buck to the Priest’s wife and turned away, ‘Hai‘,’ said the mother, ‘when a young man wins a girl he is permitted to say a few words to her!’–for she was pleased to think that her daughter had got a husband at last.

“‘I did not kill the buck by myself,’ said Ho-tai; and he went off to find the Chief Priest and tell him that he could not marry his daughter. Flower-of-the-Maguey, who was in her room all this time peeking through the curtain, took a water jar and went down to the spring where Ho-tai could not help but pass her on his way back to his own village.

“‘I did not bring back your bundle,’ she said when she saw him; ‘what is a bundle to a woman when she has found a man?’

“Then his two hearts were sore in him, for she was lovely past all naming. ‘I do not take what I cannot win by my own labor,’ said he; ‘there was a puma drove up the game for me.’

“‘Who knows,’ said she, ‘but Those Above sent it to try if you were honest or a braggart?’ After which he began to feel differently. And in due course they were married, and Ho-tai came to live in the house of the Chief Priest at Hawikuh, for her parents could not think of parting with her,

“They were very happy,” said the Condor, “for she was wisely slow as well as beautiful, and she eased him of the struggle of his two hearts, one against the other, and rested in her life as a woman.”

“Does that mean she wasn’t a puma any more?” asked Dorcas Jane.

The Condor nodded, turning over the Zuni words in his mind for just the right phrase. “Understanding of all her former states came to her with the years. There was nothing she dreaded so much as being forced out of this life into the dust and whirl of Becoming. That is one reason why she feared and distrusted the Spanish missionaries when they came, as they did about that time.