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Heart of Darkness
by
I had no idea why he wanted to be sociable, but as we chatted in there it suddenly occurred to me the fellow was trying to get at somethingin fact, pumping me. He alluded constantly to Europe, to the people I was supposed to know thereputting leading questions as to my acquaintances in the sepulchral city, and so on. His little eyes glittered like mica discswith curiosity,though he tried to keep up a bit of superciliousness. At first I was astonished, but very soon I became awfully curious to see what he would find out from me. I couldnt possibly imagine what I had in me to make it worth his while. It was very pretty to see how he baffled himself, for in truth my body was full of chills, and my head had nothing in it but that wretched steamboat business. It was evident he took me for a perfectly shameless prevaricator. At last he got angry, and to conceal a movement of furious annoyance, he yawned. I rose. Then I noticed a small sketch in oils, on a panel, representing a woman, draped and blindfolded, carrying a lighted torch. The background was somberalmost black. The movement of the woman was stately, and the effect of the torchlight on the face was sinister.
It arrested me, and he stood by civilly, holding a half-pint champagne bottle (medical comforts) with the candle stuck in it. To my question he said Mr. Kurtz had painted thisin this very station more than a year agowhile waiting for means to go to his trading-post.
Tell me, pray, said I, who is this Mr. Kurtz?
The chief of the Inner Station, he answered in a short tone, looking away. Much obliged, I said, laughing. And you are the brickmaker of the Central Station. Everyone knows that. He was silent for a while. He is a prodigy, he said at last. He is an emissary of pity, and science, and progress, and devil knows what else. We want, he began to declaim suddenly, for the guidance of the cause intrusted to us by Europe, so to speak, higher intelligence, wide sympathies, a singleness of purpose. Who says that? I asked. Lots of them, he replied. Some even write that; and so HE comes here, a special being, as you ought to know. Why ought I to know? I interrupted, really surprised. He paid no attention. Yes. To-day he is chief of the best station, next year he will be assistant-manager, two years more and but I dare say you know what he will be in two years time. You are of the new gangthe gang of virtue. The same people who sent him specially also recommended you. Oh, dont say no. Ive my own eyes to trust. Light dawned upon me. My dear aunts influential acquaintances were producing an unexpected effect upon that young man. I nearly burst into a laugh. Do you read the Companys confidential correspondence? I asked. He hadnt a word to say. It was great fun. When Mr. Kurtz, I continued severely, is General Manager, you wont have the opportunity.
He blew the candle out suddenly, and we went outside. The moon had risen. Black figures strolled about listlessly, pouring water on the glow, whence proceeded a sound of hissing; steam ascended in the moonlight, the beaten nigger groaned somewhere. What a row the brute makes! said the indefatigable man with the mustaches, appearing near us. Serve him right. Transgressionpunishmentbang! Pitiless, pitiless. Thats the only way. This will prevent all conflagrations for the future. I was just telling the manager He noticed my companion, and became crestfallen all at once. Not in bed yet, he said, with a kind of servile heartiness; its so natural. Ha! Danger-agitation. He vanished. I went on to the river-side, and the other followed me. I heard a scathing murmur at my ear, Heap of muffsgo to. The pilgrims could be seen in knots gesticulating, discussing. Several had still their staves in their hands. I verily believe they took these sticks to bed with them. Beyond the fence the forest stood up spectrally in the moonlight, and through the dim stir, through the faint sounds of that lamentable courtyard, the silence of the land went home to ones very heart,its mystery, its greatness, the amazing reality of its concealed life. The hurt nigger moaned feebly somewhere near by, and then fetched a deep sigh that made me mend my pace away from there. I felt a hand introducing itself under my arm. My dear sir, said the fellow, I dont want to be misunderstood, and especially by you, who will see Mr. Kurtz long before I can have that pleasure. I wouldnt like him to get a false idea of my disposition.