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“Milton always takes a cat nap after meals,” she said, smiling. And I smiled back, she was so rosy and round and altogether comfortable.

Rosalie and I went with them to the train, and it was as we drove back that I spoke of them.

“They are rather great dears, aren’t they?”

Rosalie was vehement. “I hate old people!”

A chill struck to my bones. “You hate them? Why?”

“They’re–ugly, Jim Crow. Did you see how they had shrunk since I last saw them–and the veins in their hands–and the skull showing through his forehead?”

She was twenty-five, and I was almost twice her age. When I was old she would still be young–young enough to see my shrunken body and the skull showing through!

The look that had been in her eyes for Perry would some day be in her eyes for me. And I knew that if I ever saw it it would strike me dead. It might not kill me physically, but it would wither like a flame all joy and hope forever.

When we reached the bungalow I built up a fire, and Rosalie, leaving me for a little, came back in something sheer and lovely in green. It was the first time since Perry’s death that she had discarded her purple robes. She sank into a big chair opposite me and put her silver-slippered feet on the green cushion.

“Isn’t it heavenly to be alone, Jim Crow?”

It was the high moment which I had planned, but I could not grasp it. Between me and happiness stood the shadow of that other Rosalie, shrinking from me when I was old as she had shrunk from Perry.

“My dear,” I said, and I did not look at her, “I’ve been thinking a lot about you.”

Her chin was in her hand. “I know.”

But she didn’t know.

“I’ve been thinking, Rosalie; and I want to give you something for Christmas which will make you happy throughout the year.”

“You are such a darling, Jim Crow.”

“And I have thought of this–a trip to Europe. You’ll let me do it, won’t you? There’ll be the art galleries, and you can stay as long as you like.”

I could see that she was puzzled. “Do you mean that I am to go–alone?” she asked slowly.

“There may be some one going. I’ll find out.”

There was dead silence.

“You will let me do it?” I asked finally.

She came over to my chair and stood looking down at me.

“Why are you sending me alone, Jim Crow?”

I think, then, that she saw the anguish in my eyes. She sank on her knees beside my chair.

“I don’t want to go alone, Jim Crow. I want to stay–with–you.”

* * * * *

Well, the jewel is on her breast and a ring to match is on her finger. And when the spring comes we are to sail for Italy, for France.

Perhaps we shall never come back. And I am going to give Rosalie all the loveliness that life can hold for her. Now and then she whispers that she never knew love until I taught it to her. That what she felt for Perry was but the echo of his own need of her.

“But I’d tramp the muddy roads with you, Jim Crow.”

I wonder if she really means it. I wish with all my heart that I might know it true. I have never told her of my fears and I believe that I can make her happy. I shall try not to look too far beyond the days we shall have in the Louvre and the Uffizi and the Pitti Palace. We shall search for beauty, and perhaps I can teach her to find it, before it is too late, in the things that count.