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I don’t know rightly how the trouble began. Other folks–jealous folks–made mischief. Anne was thirty miles away and Gilbert couldn’t see her every day to keep matters clear and fair. Besides, as I’ve said, they were both proud and high-sperrited. The upshot of it was they had a terrible quarrel and the engagement was broken.

When two people don’t care overly much for each other, Nora May, a quarrel never amounts to much between them, and it’s soon made up. But when they love each other better than life it cuts so deep and hurts so much that nine times out of ten they won’t ever forgive each other. The more you love anybody, Nora May, the more he can hurt you. To be sure, you’re too young to be thinking of such things.

It all came like a thunderclap on Gil’s friends here at Greendale, because we hadn’t ever suspected things were going wrong. The first thing we knew was that Anne had gone up west to teach school again at St. Mary’s, eighty miles away, and Gilbert, he went out to Manitoba on a harvest excursion and stayed there. It just about broke his parents’ hearts. He was their only child and they just worshipped him.

Gil and Anne both wrote to me off and on, but never a word, not so much as a name, did they say of each other. I’d ‘a’ writ and asked ’em the rights of the fuss if I could, in hopes of patching it up, but I can’t write now–my hand is too shaky–and mebbe it was just as well, for meddling is terribly risky work in a love trouble, Nora May. Ninety-nine times out of a hundred the last state of a meddler and them she meddles with is worse than the first.

So I just set tight and said nothing, while everybody else in the clan was talking Anne and Gil sixty words to the minute.

Well, last birthday morning I was feeling terrible disperrited. I had made up my mind that my birthday was always to be a good thing for other people, and there didn’t seem one blessed thing I could do to make anybody glad. Emma Matilda and George and the children were all well and happy and wanted for nothing that I could give them. I begun to be afraid I’d lived long enough, Nora May. When a woman gets to the point where she can’t give a gift of joy to anyone, there ain’t much use in her living. I felt real old and worn out and useless.

I was sitting here under these very trees–they was just budding out in leaf then, as young and cheerful as if they wasn’t a hundred years old. And I sighed right out loud and said, “Oh, Grandpa Holland, it’s time I was put away up on the hill there with you.” And with that the gate banged and there was Nancy Jane Whitmore’s boy, Sam, with two letters for me.

One was from Anne up at St. Mary’s and the other was from Gil out in Manitoba.

I read Anne’s first. She just struck right into things in the first paragraph. She said her year at St. Mary’s was nearly up, and when it was she meant to quit teaching and go away to New York and learn to be a trained nurse. She said she was just broken-hearted about Gilbert, and would always love him to the day of her death. But she knew he didn’t care anything more about her after the way he had acted, and there was nothing left for her in life but to do something for other people, and so on and so on, for twelve mortal pages. Anne is a fine writer, and I just cried like a babe over that letter, it was so touching, although I was enjoying myself hugely all the time, I was so delighted to find out that Anne loved Gilbert still. I was getting skeered she didn’t, her letters all winter had been so kind of jokey and frivolous, all about the good times she was having, and the parties she went to, and the new dresses she got. New dresses! When I read that letter of Anne’s, I knew that all the purple and fine linen in the world was just like so much sackcloth and ashes to her as long as Gilbert was sulking out on a prairie farm.