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“Why not now?”

“Because it wouldn’t be quite fair to you. I–I may be killed, or something. That’s one thing. Then, it’s because of your people.”

That rather stunned her. She had no people. She was going to tell him that, but she decided not to. She felt quite sure that he considered “people” essential, and though she felt that, for any long period of time, these queer ideas and scruples of his would be difficult to live up to, she intended to do it for that one week.

“Oh, all right,” she said, meekly enough.

She felt very tender toward him after that, and her new gentleness made it all hard for him. She caught him looking at her wistfully at times, and it seemed to her that he was not looking well. His eyes were hollow, his face thin. She put her hand over his as it lay on the table.

“Look here,” she said, “you look half sick, or worried, or something. Stop telling me to take care of myself, and look after yourself a little better.”

“I’m all right,” he replied. Then soon after: “Everything’s strange. That’s the trouble,” he confessed. “It’s only in little things that don’t matter, but a fellow feels such a duffer.”

On the last night he took her to dinner–a small French restaurant in a back street in Soho. He had heard about it somewhere. Edith classed it as soon as she entered. It was too retiring, too demure. Its very location was clandestine.

But he never knew. He was divided that night between joy at getting to his regiment and grief at leaving her. Rather self-engrossed, she thought.

They had a table by an open grate fire, with a screen “to shut off the draft,” the waiter said. It gave the modest meal a delightfully homey air, their isolation and the bright coal fire. For the first time they learned the joys of mussels boiled in milk, of French souffle and other things.

At the end of the evening he took her back to her cheap hotel in a taxicab. She expected him to kiss her. Her experience of taxicabs had been like that. But he did not. He said very little on the way home, but sat well back and eyed her wistful eyes. She chattered to cover his silence–of rehearsals, of–with reservations–of Lethway, of the anticipated London opening. She felt very sad herself. He had been a tie to America, and he had been much more than that. Though she did not realise it, he had had a profound effect on her. In trying to seem what he thought her she was becoming what he thought her. Her old reckless attitude toward life was gone, or was going.

The day before she had refused an invitation to a night club, and called herself a fool for doing it. But she had refused.

Not that he had performed miracles with her. She was still frankly a dweller on the neutral ground. But to that instinct that had kept her up to that time what she would have called “straight” had been added a new refinement. She was no longer the reckless and romping girl whose abandon had caught Lethway’s eye.

She had gained a soul, perhaps, and lost a livelihood.

When they reached the hotel he got out and went in with her. The hall porter was watching and she held out her hand. But he shook his head.

“If I touched your hand,” he said, “I would have to take you in my arms. Good-bye, dear.”

“Good-bye,” she said. There were tears in her eyes. It was through a mist that she saw him, as the elevator went up, standing at salute, his eyes following her until she disappeared from sight.

IV

Things were going wrong with Lethway. The management was ragging him, for one thing.

“Give the girl time,” he said almost viciously, at the end of a particularly bad rehearsal. “She’s had a long voyage and she’s tired. Besides,” he added, “these acts never do go at rehearsal. Give me a good house at the opening and she’ll show you what she can do.”