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The Young Man shook his head, but did not look at her.

“It’s pretty bad,” he admitted.

“You see,” said the Girl pathetically, “the shadow of it has been over my whole life. Of course, when I was a very little girl I didn’t mind it so much. It was such a long way off and lots of things might happen. The Creature might run away with some other girl–or I might have the smallpox–or Beatrix’s nose might be straight when she grew up. And if Beatrix’s nose were straight she’d be a great deal prettier than I am. But nothing did happen–and her nose is puggier than ever. Then when I grew up things were horrid. I never could have a single little bit of fun. And Beatrix had such a good time! She had scores of lovers in spite of her nose. To be sure, she’s engaged now–and he’s a horrid, faddy little creature. But he is her own choice. She wasn’t told that there was a man in England whom she must marry by and by, when he got sufficiently reconciled to the idea to come and ask her. Oh, it makes me furious!”

“Is–is there–anyone else?” asked the Young Man hesitatingly.

“Oh, dear, no. How could there be? Why, you know, I couldn’t have the tiniest flirtation with another man when I was as good as engaged to the Creature. That is one of my grievances. Just think how much fun I’ve missed! I used to rage to Beatrix about it, but she would tell me that I ought to be thankful to have the chance of making such a good match–the Creature is rich, you know, and clever. As if I cared how clever or rich he is! Beatrix made me so cross that I gave up saying anything and sulked by myself. So they think I’m quite reconciled to it, but I’m not.”

“He might be very nice after all,” suggested the Young Man.

“Nice! That isn’t the point. Oh, don’t you see? But no, you’re a man–you can’t understand. You must just take my word for it. The whole thing makes me furious. But I haven’t told you the worst. The Creature is on his way out to Canada now. He may arrive here at any minute. And they are all so aggravatingly delighted over it.”

“What do you suppose he feels like?” asked the Young Man reflectively.

“Well,” said the Girl frankly, “I’ve been too much taken up with my own feelings to worry about his. But I daresay they are pretty much like mine. He must loathe and detest the very thought of me.”

“Oh, I don’t think he does,” said the Young Man gravely.

“Don’t you? Well, what do you suppose he does think of it all? You ought to understand the man’s part of it better than I can.”

“There’s as much difference in men as in women,” said the Young Man in an impersonal tone. “I may be right or wrong, you see, but I imagine he would feel something like this: From boyhood he has understood that away out in Canada there is a little girl growing up who is some day to be his wife. She becomes his boyish ideal of all that is good and true. He pictures her as beautiful and winsome and sweet. She is his heart’s lady, and the thought of her abides with him as a safeguard and an inspiration. For her sake he resolves to make the most of himself, and live a clean, loyal life. When she comes to him she must find his heart fit to receive her. There is never a time in all his life when the dream of her does not gleam before him as of a star to which he may aspire with all reverence and love.”

The Young Man stopped abruptly, and looked at the Girl. She bent forward with shining eyes, and touched his hand.