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Hastily I peered round, to see if I could get glimpse of his face. I noticed enough to send me back with a little stagger.

“Has none of you got a key to this door?” I asked, reviewing the scared faces about me, than which my own was no less troubled, I feel sure.

“Only the Governor, sir,” said the warder who had fetched me. “There’s not a man but him amongst us that ever seen this opened.”

He was wrong there, I could have told him; but held my tongue, for obvious reasons.

“I want it opened. Will one of you feel in his pockets?”

Not a soul stirred. Even had not sense of discipline precluded, that of a certain inhuman atmosphere made fearful creatures of them all.

“Then,” said I, “I must do it myself.”

I turned once more to the stiff-strung figure, had actually put hand on it, when an exclamation from Vokins arrested me.

“There’s a key–there, sir!” he said–“stickin’ out yonder between its feet.”

Sure enough there was–Johnson’s, no doubt, that had been shot from its socket by the clapping to of the door, and afterwards kicked aside by the warder in his convulsive struggles.

I stooped, only too thankful for the respite, and drew it forth. I had seen it but once before, yet I recognised it at a glance.

Now, I confess, my heart felt ill as I slipped the key into the wards, and a sickness of resentment at the tyranny of Fate in making me its helpless minister surged up in my veins. Once, with my fingers on the iron loop, I paused, and ventured a fearful side glance at the figure whose crookt elbow almost touched my face; then, strung to the high pitch of inevitability, I shot the lock, pushed at the door, and in the act, made a back leap into the corridor.

Scarcely, in doing so, did I look for the totter and collapse outwards of the rigid form. I had expected to see it fall away, face down, into the cell, as its support swung from it. Yet it was, I swear, as if something from within had relaxed its grasp and given the fearful dead man a swingeing push outwards as the door opened.

It went on its back, with a dusty slap on the stone flags, and from all its spectators–me included–came a sudden drawn sound, like wind in a keyhole.

What can I say, or how describe it? A dead thing it was–but the face!

Barred with livid scars where the grating rails had crossed it, the rest seemed to have been worked and kneaded into a mere featureless plate of yellow and expressionless flesh.

And it was this I had seen in the glass!

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There was an interval following the experience above narrated, during which a certain personality that had once been mine was effaced or suspended, and I seemed a passive creature, innocent of the least desire of independence. It was not that I was actually ill or actually insane. A merciful Providence set my finer wits slumbering, that was all, leaving me a sufficiency of the grosser faculties that were necessary to the right ordering of my behaviour.

I kept to my room, it is true, and even lay a good deal in bed; but this was more to satisfy the busy scruples of a locum tenens –a practitioner of the neighbourhood, who came daily to the prison to officiate in my absence–than to cosset a complaint that in its inactivity was purely negative. I could review what had happened with a calmness as profound as if I had read of it in a book. I could have wished to continue my duties, indeed, had the power of insistence remained to me. But the saner medicus was acute where I had gone blunt, and bade me to the restful course. He was right. I was mentally stunned, and had I not slept off my lethargy, I should have gone mad in an hour–leapt at a bound, probably, from inertia to flaming lunacy.