FullReads

Her opportunity came when Esterbrook asked with grave earnestness if their marriage might not be hastened a little–could he not have his bride in August? For a fleeting second Marian closed her eyes and the slender hands, lying among the laces in her lap, clasped each other convulsively.

Then she said quietly, “Sometimes I have thought, Esterbrook, that it might be better–if we were never married at all.”

Esterbrook turned a startled face upon her.

“Not married at all! Marian, what do you mean?”

“Just what I say. I do not think we are as well suited to each other after all as we have fancied. We have loved each other as brother and sister might–that is all. I think it will be best to be brother and sister forever–nothing more.”

Esterbrook sprang to his feet.

“Marian, do you know what you are saying? You surely cannot have heard–no one could have told you–“

“I have heard nothing,” she interrupted hurriedly. “No one has told me anything. I have only said what I have been thinking of late. I am sure we have made a mistake. It is not too late to remedy it. You will not refuse my request, Esterbrook? You will set me free?”

“Good heavens, Marian!” he said hoarsely. “I cannot realize that you are in earnest. Have you ceased to care for me?” The rigidly locked hands were clasped a little tighter.

“No–I shall always care for you as my friend if you will let me. But I know we could not make each other happy–the time for that has gone by. I would never be satisfied, nor would you. Esterbrook, will you release me from a promise which has become an irksome fetter?”

He looked down on her upturned face mistily. A great joy was surging up in his heart–yet it was mingled with great regret.

He knew–none better–what was passing out of his life, what he was losing when he lost that pure, womanly nature.

“If you really mean this, Marian,” he said slowly, “if you really have come to feel that your truest love is not and never can be mine–that I cannot make you happy–then there is nothing for me to do but to grant your request. You are free.”

“Thank you, dear,” she said gently, as she stood up.

She slipped his ring from her finger and held it out to him. He took it mechanically. He still felt dazed and unreal.

Marian held out her hand.

“Good-night, Esterbrook,” she said, a little wearily. “I feel tired. I am glad you see it all in the same light as I do.”

“Marian,” he said earnestly, clasping the outstretched hand, “are you sure that you will be happy–are you sure that you are doing a wise thing?”

“Quite sure,” she answered, with a faint smile. “I am not acting rashly. I have thought it all over carefully. Things are much better so, dear. We will always be friends. Your joys and sorrows will be to me as my own. When another love comes to bless your life, Esterbrook, I will be glad. And now, good-night. I want to be alone now.”

At the doorway he turned to look back at her, standing in all her sweet stateliness in the twilight duskness, and the keen realization of all he had lost made him bow his head with a quick pang of regret.

Then he went out into the darkness of the summer night.

An hour later he stood alone on the little point where he had parted with Magdalen the night before. A restless night wind was moaning through the pines that fringed the bank behind him; the moon shone down radiantly, turning the calm expanse of the bay into a milk-white sheen.

He took Marian’s ring from his pocket and kissed it reverently. Then he threw it from him far out over the water. For a second the diamond flashed in the moonlight; then, with a tiny splash, it fell among the ripples.

Esterbrook turned his face to the Cove, lying dark and silent in the curve between the crescent headlands. A solitary light glimmered from the low eaves of the Barrett cottage.

Tomorrow, was his unspoken thought, I will be free; to go back to Magdalen.