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“Yes, you ought,” returns the young woman, gravely. “It doesn’t really rest one to lie in bed like that. I’ve tried it at boarding-school. It was no good whatever.”

“Should you advise me,” asks David, in a confiding tone, “to arise early on Sunday?”

The girl blushes a little. “By all means!” she cries, her eyes twinkling, “and–and come to church. Our morning sermons are really very much better than those in the evening.” And she plays a waltz, and what with the music and the warmth of the room and the perfume of the roses, a something nameless and mystical steals over the poor clerk, and swathes him about like the fumes of opium. They are alone. The silence is made deeper by that rhythmic unswelling of sound. As the painter flushes the bare wall into splendor, these emotions illuminated his soul, and gave to it that high courage that comes when men or women suddenly realize that each life has its significance,–their own lives no less than the lives of others.

The man sitting there in the shadow in that noisy train saw in his vision how the lad arose and moved, like one under a spell, toward the piano. He felt again the enchantment of the music-ridden quiet, of the perfume, and the presence of the woman.

“Knowing you and speaking with you have not made much difference with me,” he whispers, drunk on the new wine of passion, “for I have loved you since I saw you first. And though it is so sweet to hear you speak, your voice is no more beautiful than I thought it would be. I have loved you a long time, and I want to know –“

The broken man in the shadow remembered how the lad stopped, astonished at his boldness and his fluency, overcome suddenly at the thought of what he was saying. The music stopped with a discord. The girl arose, trembling and scarlet.

“I would not have believed it of you,” she cries, “to take advantage of me like this, when I am alone–and–everything. You know very well that nothing but trouble could come to either of us from your telling me a thing like that.”

He puts his hands up to his face to keep off her anger. He is trembling with confusion.

Then she broke in penitently, trying to pull his hands away from his hot face: “Never mind! I know you didn’t mean anything. Be good, do, and don’t spoil the lovely times we have together. You know very well father and mother wouldn’t let us see each other at all if they–if they thought you were saying anything such as you said just now.”

“Oh, but I can’t help it!” cries the boy, despairingly. “I have never loved anybody at all till now. I don’t mean not another girl, you know. But you are the first being I ever cared for. I sometimes think mother cares for me because I pay the rent. And the office–you can’t imagine what that is like. The men in it are moving corpses. They’re proud to be that way, and so was I till I knew you and learned what life was like. All the happy moments I have had have been here. Now, if you tell me that we are not to care for each other –“

There was some one coming down the hall. The curtain lifted. A middle-aged man stood there looking at him.

“Culross,” said he, “I’m disappointed in you. I didn’t mean to listen, but I couldn’t help hearing what you said just now. I don’t blame you particularly. Young men will be fools. And I do not in any way mean to insult you when I tell you to stop your coming here. I don’t want to see you inside this door again, and after a while you will thank me for it. You have taken a very unfair advantage of my invitation. I make allowances for your youth.”