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A Redeeming Sacrifice
by
The autumn night was very clear and chill, with a faint, moaning wind blowing up from the northwest over the sea that lay shimmering before the door. Out beyond the cove the boats were nodding and curtsying on the swell, and over the shore fields the great red star of the lighthouse flared out against the silvery sky. Paul, with a whistle, sauntered down the sandy lane, thinking of Joan. How mightily he loved her–he, Paul King, who had made a mock of so many women and had never loved before! Ah, and she loved him. She had never said so in words, but eyes and tones had said it–she, Joan Shelley, the pick and pride of the Harbour girls, whom so many men had wooed, winning their trouble for their pains. He had won her; she was his and his only, for the asking. His heart was seething with pride and triumph and passion as he strode down to the shore and flung himself on the cold sand in the black shadow of Michael Brown’s beached boat.
Byron Lyall, a grizzled, elderly man, half farmer, half fisherman, and Maxwell Holmes, the Prospect schoolteacher, came up to the boat presently. Paul lay softly and listened to what they were saying. He was not troubled by any sense of dishonour. Honour was something Paul King could not lose since it was something he had never possessed. They were talking of him and Joan.
“What a shame that a girl like Joan Shelley should throw herself away on a man like that,” Holmes said.
Byron Lyall removed the pipe he was smoking and spat reflectively at his shadow.
“Darned shame,” he agreed. “That girl’s life will be ruined if she marries him, plum’ ruined, and marry him she will. He’s bewitched her–darned if I can understand it. A dozen better men have wanted her–Connor Mitchell for one. And he’s a honest, steady fellow with a good home to offer her. If King had left her alone, she’d have taken Connor. She used to like him well enough. But that’s all over. She’s infatuated with King, the worthless scamp. She’ll marry him and be sorry for it to her last day. He’s bad clear through and always will be. Why, look you, Teacher, most men pull up a bit when they’re courting a girl, no matter how wild they’ve been and will be again. Paul hasn’t. It hasn’t made any difference. He was dead drunk night afore last at the Harbour head, and he hasn’t done a stroke of work for a month. And yet Joan Shelley’ll take him.”
“What are her people thinking of to let her go with him?” asked Holmes.
“She hasn’t any but her brother. He’s against Paul, of course, but it won’t matter. The girl’s fancy’s caught and she’ll go her own gait to ruin. Ruin, I tell ye. If she marries that handsome ne’er-do-well, she’ll be a wretched woman all her days and none to pity her.”
The two moved away then, and Paul lay motionless, face downward on the sand, his lips pressed against Joan’s sweet, crushed rose. He felt no anger over Byron Lyall’s unsparing condemnation. He knew it was true, every word of it. He was a worthless scamp and always would be. He knew that perfectly well. It was in his blood. None of his race had ever been respectable and he was worse than them all. He had no intention of trying to reform because he could not and because he did not even want to. He was not fit to touch Joan’s hand. Yet he had meant to marry her!
But to spoil her life! Would it do that? Yes, it surely would. And if he were out of the way, taking his baleful charm out of her life, Connor Mitchell might and doubtless would win her yet and give her all he could not.
The man suddenly felt his eyes wet with tears. He had never shed a tear in his daredevil life before, but they came hot and stinging now. Something he had never known or thought of before entered into his passion and purified it. He loved Joan. Did he love her well enough to stand aside and let another take the sweetness and grace that was now his own? Did he love her well enough to save her from the poverty-stricken, shamed life she must lead with him? Did he love her better than himself?