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“For M. Barre, well! But the other–Henri. How do you know that he is here for life? Men get pardoned, men get free, men–get free, I tell you.”

Shorland noticed the interrupted word. He remembered it afterwards all too distinctly enough.

“The twenty-sixth, the twenty-sixth,” she said.

Then a pause, and afterwards with a sudden sharpness: “Come to me on the twenty-fifth, and I will give you my reply, M. Shorland.”

He still held the portrait in his hand. She stepped forward. “Let me see it again,” she said.

He handed it to her: “You have spoiled a good face, Gabrielle.”

“But the eyes are not hurt,” she replied; “see how they look at one.” She handed it back.

“Yes, kindly.”

“And sadly. As though he still remembered Lucile. Lucile! I have not been called that name for a long time. It is on my grave-stone, you know. Ah, perhaps you do not know. You never saw my grave. I have. And on the tombstone is written this: By Luke to Lucile. And then beneath, where the grass almost hides it, the line: I have followed my Star to the last. You do not know what that line means; I will tell you. Once, when we were first married, he wrote me some verses, and he called them, ‘My Star, Lucile.’ Here is a verse–ah, why do you not smile, when I say I will tell you what he wrote? Chut! Women such as I have memories sometimes. One can admire the Heaven even if one lives in–ah, you know! Listen.” And with a voice that seemed far away and not part of herself she repeated these lines:

“In my sky of delight there’s a beautiful Star;
‘Tis the sun and the moon of my days;
And the doors of its glory are ever ajar,
And I live in the glow of its rays.
‘Tis my winter of joy and my summer of rest,
‘Tis my future, my present, my past;
And though storms fill the East and the clouds haunt the West,
I shall follow my Star to the last.”

“There, that was to Lucile. What would he write to Gabrielle–to Henri’s Gabrielle? How droll–how droll!” Again she laughed that laugh of eternal recklessness.

It filled Shorland this time with a sense of fear. He lost sight of everything–this strange and interesting woman, and the peculiar nature of the events in which he was sharing, and saw only Clare Hazard’s ruined life, Luke Freeman’s despair, and the fatal 26th of January, so near at hand. He could see no way out of the labyrinth of disgrace. It unnerved him more than anything that had ever happened to him, and he turned bewildered towards the door. He saw that while Gabrielle lived, a dead misfortune would be ever crouching at the threshold of Freeman’s home, that whether the woman agreed to be silent or not, the hurt to Clare would remain the same. With an angry bitterness in his voice that he did not try to hide he said: “There is nothing more to be done now, Gabrielle, that I can see. But it is a crime–it is a pity!”

“A pity that he did not tell the truth on the gravestone–that he did not follow his star to the last, monsieur? How droll! And you should see how green the grass was on my grave! Yes, it is a pity.”

But Shorland, heavy at heart, looked at her and said nothing more. He wondered why it was that he did not loathe her. Somehow, even in her shame, she compelled a kind of admiration and awe. She was the wreck of splendid possibilities. A poisonous vitality possessed her, but through it glowed a daring and a candour that belonged to her before she became wicked, and that now half redeemed her in the eyes of this man, who knew the worst of her. Even in her sin she was loyal to the scoundrel for whom she had sacrificed two lives, her own and another’s. Her brow might flush with shame of the mad deed that turned her life awry, and of the degradation of her present surroundings; but her eyes looked straight into those of Shorland without wavering, with the pride of strength if not of goodness.