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I was not blushing, and I was furious. It was really too bad of Alicia, although I don’t see why I need have cared.

Alicia kept her eye on us both until Jack was fairly gone. Then she remarked in the patronizing tone which I detest:

“Really, Katherine, Jack Willoughby has developed into quite a passable-looking fellow, although he is rather shabby. But I suppose he is poor.”

“Yes,” I answered curtly, “he is poor, in everything except youth and manhood and goodness and truth! But I suppose those don’t count for anything.”

Whereupon Alicia lifted her eyebrows and looked me over.

Just at dusk a box arrived with Jack’s compliments. It was full of lovely white carnations, and must have cost the extravagant fellow more than he has any business to waste on flowers. I was beast enough to put them on when I went down to listen to another man’s love-making.

This evening I sparkled and scintillated with unusual brilliancy, for Jack’s visit and my consequent crossing of swords with Alicia had produced a certain elation of spirits. When Gus Sinclair was leaving he asked if he might see me alone tomorrow afternoon.

I knew what that meant, and a cold shiver went up and down my backbone. But I looked down at him–spick-and-span and glossy–his neckties are never crooked–and said, yes, he might come at three o’clock.

Alicia had noticed our aside–when did anything ever escape her?–and when he was gone she asked, significantly, what secret he had been telling me.

“He wants to see me alone tomorrow afternoon. I suppose you know what that means, Alicia?”

“Ah,” purred Alicia, “I congratulate you, my dear.”

“Aren’t your congratulations a little premature?” I asked coldly. “I haven’t accepted him yet.”

“But you will?”

“Oh, certainly. Isn’t it what we’ve schemed and angled for? I’m very well satisfied.”

And so I am. But I wish it hadn’t come so soon after Jack’s visit, because I feel rather upset yet. Of course I like Gus Sinclair very much, and I am sure I shall be very fond of him.

Well, I must go to bed now and get my beauty sleep. I don’t want to be haggard and hollow-eyed at that important interview tomorrow–an interview that will decide my destiny.

* * * * *

Thrush Hill, May 6, 18–.

Well, it did decide it, but not exactly in the way I anticipated. I can look back on the whole affair quite calmly now, but I wouldn’t live it over again for all the wealth of Ind.

That day when Gus Sinclair came I was all ready for him. I had put on my very prettiest new gown to do honour to the occasion, and Alicia smilingly assured me I was looking very well.

“And so cool and composed. Will you be able to keep that up? Don’t you really feel a little nervous, Katherine?”

“Not in the least,” I said. “I suppose I ought to be, according to traditions, but I never felt less flustered in my life.”

When Bessie brought up Gus Sinclair’s card Alicia dropped a pecky little kiss on my cheek, and pushed me toward the door. I went down calmly, although I’ll admit that my heart was beating wildly. Gus Sinclair was plainly nervous, but I was composed enough for both. You would really have thought that I was in the habit of being proposed to by a millionaire every day.

“I suppose you know what I have come to say,” he said, standing before me, as I leaned gracefully back in a big chair, having taken care that the folds of my dress fell just as they should.

And then he proceeded to say it in a rather jumbled-up fashion, but very sincerely.

I remember thinking at the time that he must have composed the speech in his head the night before, and rehearsed it several times, but was forgetting it in spots.

When he ended with the self-same question that Jack had asked me three months before at Thrush Hill he stopped and took my hands.