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He turned my face up and kissed me squarely on the mouth. He had never kissed me since the summer before he went away to college. Somehow it didn’t seem a bit the same as it used to; it was–nicer now.

After he went away I came upstairs and had a good, comfortable howl. Then I buried the whole affair decently. I am not going to think of it any more.

I shall always have the highest esteem for Jack, and I hope he will soon find some nice girl who will make him happy. Mary Carter would jump at him, I know. To be sure, she is as homely as she can be and live. But, then, Jack is always telling me how little he cares for beauty, so I have no doubt she will suit him admirably.

As for myself–well, I am ambitious. I don’t suppose my ambition is a very lofty one, but such as it is I mean to hunt it down. Come. Let me put it down in black and white, once for all, and see how it looks:

I mean to marry the rich nephew of the Sinclairs.

There! It is out, and I feel better. How mercenary and awful it looks written out in cold blood like that. I wouldn’t have Jack or Aunt Elizabeth–dear, unworldly old soul–see it for the world. But I wouldn’t mind Alicia.

Poor dear Jack!

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Montreal, Dec. 16, 18–.

This is a nice way to keep a journal. But the days when I could write regularly are gone by. That was when I was at Thrush Hill.

I am having a simply divine time. How in the world did I ever contrive to live at Thrush Hill?

To be sure, I felt badly enough that day in October when I left it. When the train left Valleyfield I just cried like a baby.

Alicia and Roger welcomed me very heartily, and after the first week of homesickness–I shiver yet when I think of it–was over, I settled down to my new life as if I had been born to it.

Alicia has a magnificent home and everything heart could wish for–jewels, carriages, servants, opera boxes, and social position. Roger is a model husband apparently. I must also admit that he is a model brother-in-law.

I could feel Alicia looking me over critically the moment we met. I trembled with suspense, but I was soon relieved.

“Do you know, Katherine, I am glad to see that your photograph didn’t flatter you. Photographs so often do, I am positively surprised at the way you have developed, my dear; you used to be such a scrawny little brown thing. By the way, I hope there is nothing between you and Jack Willoughby?”

“No, of course not,” I answered hurriedly. I had intended to tell Alicia all about Jack, but when it came to the point I couldn’t.

“I am glad of that,” said Alicia, with a relieved air. “Of course, I’ve no doubt Jack is a good fellow enough. He was a nice boy. But he would not be a suitable husband for you, Katherine.”

I knew that very well. That was just why I had refused him. But it made me wince to hear Alicia say it. I instantly froze up–Alicia says dignity is becoming to me–and Jack’s name has never been mentioned between us since.

I made my bow to society at an “At Home” which Alicia gave for that purpose. She drilled me well beforehand, and I think I acquitted myself decently. Charlie Vankleek, whose verdict makes or mars every debutante in his set, has approved of me. He called me a beauty, and everybody now believes that I am one, and greets me accordingly.

I met Gus Sinclair at Mrs. Brompton’s dinner. Alicia declares it was a case of love at first sight. If so, I must confess that it was all on one side.

Mr. Sinclair is undeniably ugly–even Alicia has to admit that–and can’t hold a candle to Jack in point of looks, for Jack, poor boy, was handsome, if he were nothing else. But, as Alicia does not fail to remind me, Mr. Sinclair’s homeliness is well gilded.