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“Well, I think they have a good deal to do with it, anyhow,” I retorted. “It’s all very well to pretend to despise wealth, but it’s generally a case of sour grapes. I will own up honestly that I’d love to be rich.”

It always seems to make Jack blue and grumpy when I talk like that. I suppose that is one reason why he never asked me to settle down in life as a country doctor’s wife. Another was, no doubt, that I always nipped his sentimental sproutings religiously in the bud.

Three weeks ago Alicia wrote to me, asking me to spend the winter with her. Her letters always make me just gasp with longing for the life they describe.

Jack’s face, when I told him about it, was so woebegone that I felt a stab of remorse, even in the heyday of my delight.

“Do you really mean it, Kitty? Are you going away to leave me?”

“You won’t miss me much,” I said flippantly–I had a creepy, crawly presentiment that a scene of some kind was threatening–“and I’m awfully tired of Thrush Hill and country life, Jack. I suppose it is horribly ungrateful of me to say so, but it is the truth.”

“I shall miss you,” he said soberly.

Somehow he had my hands in his. How did he ever get them? I was sure I had them safely tucked out of harm’s way behind me. “You know, Kitty, that I love you. I am a poor man–perhaps I may never be anything else–and this may seem to you very presumptuous. But I cannot let you go like this. Will you be my wife, dear?”

Wasn’t it horribly straightforward and direct? So like Jack! I tried to pull my hands away, but he held them fast. There was nothing to do but answer him. That “no” I had determined to say must be said, but, oh! how woefully it did stick in my throat!

And I honestly believe that by the time I got it out it would have been transformed into a “yes,” in spite of me, had it not been for a certain paragraph in Alicia’s letter which came providentially to my mind:

Not to flatter you, Katherine, you are a beauty, my dear–if your photo is to be trusted. If you have not discovered that fact before–how should you, indeed, in a place like Thrush Hill?–you soon will in Montreal. With your face and figure you will make a sensation.

There is to be a nephew of the Sinclairs here this winter. He is an American, immensely wealthy, and will be the catch of the season. A word to the wise, etc. Don’t get into any foolish entanglement down there. I have heard some gossip of you and our old playfellow, Jack Willoughby. I hope it is nothing but gossip. You can do better than that, Katherine.

That settled Jack’s fate, if there ever had been any doubt.

“Don’t talk like that, Jack,” I said hurriedly. “It is all nonsense. I think a great deal of you as a friend and–and–all that, you know. But I can never marry you.”

“Are you sure, Kitty?” said Jack earnestly. “Don’t you care for me at all?”

It was horrid of Jack to ask that question!

“No,” I said miserably, “not–not in that way, Jack. Oh, don’t ever say anything like this to me again.”

He let go of my hands then, white to the lips.

“Oh, don’t look like that, Jack,” I entreated.

“I can’t help it,” he said in a low voice. “But I won’t bother you again, dear. It was foolish of me to expect–to hope for anything of the sort. You are a thousand times too good for me, I know.”

“Oh, indeed I’m not, Jack,” I protested. “If you knew how horrid I am, really, you’d be glad and thankful for your escape. Oh, Jack, I wish people never grew up.”

Jack smiled sadly.

“Don’t feel badly over this, Kitty. It isn’t your fault. Good night, dear.”