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A March Wind
by
“You cold?” asked she–“dear?” But she told herself it was a kiss of farewell.
She stepped deftly over the low stone wall into the Marden woods, and took the slippery downward path, over pine needles. Sometimes a rounded root lay above the surface, and she stumbled on it; but the child only tightened her grasp. Amelia walked and ran with the prescience of those without fear; for her eyes were unseeing, and her thoughts hurrying forward, she depicted to herself the little drama at its close. She would be at the Crossing and away again, before the train came in; nobody need guess her trouble. Enoch must be there, waiting. She would drop the child at his side,–the child he had deserted,–and before he could say a word, turn back to her desolate home. And at the thought, she kissed the little sleeve again, and thought how good it would be if she could only be there again, though alone, in the shielding walls of her house, and the parting were over and done. She felt her breath come chokingly.
“You’ll have to walk a minute,” she whispered, setting the child down at her side. “There’s time enough. I can’t hurry.”
At that instant, she felt the slight warning of the ground beneath her feet, shaken by another step, and saw, through the pines, her husband running toward her. Rosie started to meet him, with a little cry, but Amelia thrust her aside, and hurried swiftly on in advance, her eyes feeding upon his face. It had miraculously changed. Sorrow, the great despair of life, had eaten into it, and aged it more than years of patient want. His eyes were like lamps burned low, and the wrinkles under them had guttered into misery. But to Amelia, his look had all the sweet familiarity of faces we shall see in Paradise. She did not stop to interpret his meeting glance, nor ask him to read hers. Coming upon him like a whirlwind, she put both her shaking hands on his shoulders, and laid her wet face to his.
“Enoch! Enoch!” she cried sharply, “in the name of God, come home with me!”
She felt him trembling under her hands, but he only put up his own, and very gently loosed the passionate grasp. “There! there!” he said, in a whisper. “Don’t feel so bad. It’s all right. I jest turned back for Rosie. Mebbe you won’t believe it, but I forgot all about her.”
He lowered his voice, for Rosie had gone close to him, and laid her hands clingingly upon his coat. She did not understand, but she could wait. A branch had almost barred the path, and Amelia, her dull gaze fallen, noted idly how bright the moss had kept, and how the scarlet cups enriched it. Her strength would not sustain her, void of his, and she sank down on the wood, her hands laid limply in her lap. “Enoch,” she said, from her new sense of the awe of life, “don’t lay up anything ag’inst me. You couldn’t if you knew.”
“Knew what?” asked Enoch gently. He did not forget that circumstance had laid a blow at the roots of his being; but he could not turn away while she still suffered.
Amelia began, stumblingly,–
“He talked about you, I couldn’t stan’ it.”
“Did you believe it?” he queried sternly.
“There wa’n’t anything to believe. That’s neither here nor there. But–Enoch, if anybody should cut my right hand off–Enoch”–Her voice fell brokenly. She was a New England woman, accustomed neither to analyze nor talk. She could only suffer in the elemental way of dumb things who sometimes need a language of the heart. One thing she knew. The man was hers; and if she reft herself away from him, then she must die.
He had taken Rosie’s hand, and Amelia was aware that he turned away.
“I don’t want to bring up anything,” he said hesitatingly, “but I couldn’t stan’ bein’ any less ‘n other men would, jest because the woman had the money, an’ I hadn’t. I dunno’s ‘t was exactly fair about the cows, but somehow you kind o’ set me at the head o’ things, in the beginnin’, an’ it never come into my mind”–